i don't give a fuck if it's cliche
today was the first day of school. we all know how those go.
but i've been thinking, i really don't have a way with boys. lets just reflect, madison
the first boy i ever loved, ditched me for the girl of his dreams, my worst enemy
my boyfriend after that dumped me so he could get laid - he even gave me the "i still want to be friends" line
my boyfriend after that was really good, although the circumstances were a complete nightmare... and after a while - things just changed and i can't say that that was even a "good experience" all the way around
my boyfriend after that was a complete mistake, you know the classic one, where it truly is better off just staying friends
my "boyfriend" after this was probably the most dissapointing of them all, we had the best, and most fun time being together. definantly the most nonforced chemistry that i've had with the oppisite sex. but, ya know nothing could really be that perfect, drinking and friends and partying and getting "shitfaced" were always always going to be more important than spending time with me, so i didn't want that heartbreak to last.
then of course there are all the boys i've liked forever, and yeah lets just not go there. i guess what i'm trying to say is that i still want the same thing i wanted April 30th, 2005 12:02 P.M.:
i want a boy that does nice things for me. i want a boy that thinks i am neat. i want a boy that i get along with. i want a boy that is my age. i want a boy that has dark hair. i want a boy with a cute smile. i want a boy with a dorky laugh. i want a boy that isn't a horny bastard, except when the time is needed. i want a boy that will make me laugh. i want a boy that doesn't know every word to every song. i want a boy that isn't always right. i want a boy that doesn't have to flirt with everyone. i want a boy that isn't obsessed with being sarcastic. i want a boy that isn't on a mission. i want a boy that doesn't know how to be an asshole. i want a boy that will love me.