fond memories, and frustrations.

[just_a_girl_mlg]

well, today is tuesday and by next friday i will be a rich women, becuase i have worked a whole lot in the past two weeks. i am at my grand parents house tonight. it feels really nice to spend the night with them. when i got home from work they were at my house, and betsy ditched me to go see dave matthews band. so i thought theres no where i'd rather be than here. when i was little i used to spend the night with them every satuday night and wake up on sunday mornings and have breakfast and go to church with them. it's funny though because i remember everything here seeming so much bigger when i was little, i guess it's just because i was smaller then. i guess maybe i'm just overly sentimental, but i remember everything and where everything is - and nothing around this house has moved spots. i.e. the candy, the lint roller, the pillow i used to lay on, the pretzels my papaw snacks on in his chair, i could go on and on. it's just really sweet, and i'm really glad i'm here. i haven't been very happy lately. things that don't usually happen, are most definantly happening - full throttle. and it sucks, and i'm either ready for to move on, or for it to be over.
thank jesus for:
my venus that i waited on 2+ years
jergens skin revitalizing lotion
my moleskine planner that i carry every where (even though it reminds me of my step-grandmother who has a "little black book" that she keeps and writes down everything, including the last time you called so she can throw it back in your face. - but i don't care about that, that much)
my journal that i can finally write in, tonight is the first time i have had time to myself for weeks, and man - it feels nice