Bleh ...

[just_a_dreamer_]

The night didn't help .. and I still feel empty ... like really empty cos i can't cry which is possibly better since I have school in about two hours ... oh joy ... and I didn't study .. just more fun ...

I'm still thinking about James and if he really hates me or what ... no sign of him, e-mail changed, no sign of him being on any board where I am too ... no answer to my mail ... well .. I dunno what to think anymore ... I feel .. as if everything he ever said about me was just a lie ... all these nice words were nothing ... and ... that he just played with me ... I feel so ... empty ... no tears left anymore ...I feel so ... powerless that it hurts .. actually nmy heart hurts but that's beside the point ... I don't know ... am I just making a big thing out of a small one? Am I overreacting? *sigh* I dunno ...

My two best friends are like ... growing apart ... and none wants to really talk with the other about it ... and it just shows me how strong friendship is .. *sigh* not ...

I should be studying since about half an hour ... but I'm not ... heh ... -_- But I think I'm gonna study now ... would be the best I think .. might take my mind off of some things ... right?

Love ya all ... will edit this later ..