Losing
I am losing more friends with each passing day.
I am now left with only one friend that I have to hang out with outside of school. That would be Jamie, who will forever be my best friend and I know she will always be here for me. But Brandon, he has hurt me so many times, and I have forgiven him every time, made him top priority in my life, maybe because I want him in my life, he was one of my bestfriends and I love him. Sure maybe he will still come over, but it will not be the same I can not trust him anymore, I should have never trusted him again after all the many times he hurt me, but ofcourse I did everytime thinking he had changed that he wouldn't do anything again. He ofcourse today has proved me wrong. I do not even know why I cry anymore, especially about this, but I started talking to him about what happened or rather yelling and I broke down in tears, I can not even talk to him right now, it hurts too much.
But I know I will again let him back into my life, and everything will go back to normal, it will be as if I was never upset or mad at him, while I hide my feeling from everyone again, until the next time.