bored....again
friday:
did absolutely nothing except watch the notebook with my good friend brogen
tonight/saturday:
watched my niece and nephew all day and i want someone to shoot me.
i don't think i'm doing much for the rest of the night because my boyfriend's "chilling with some people".
it's cool that i'm by myself cranky and tired. couldn't take it out on anyone.
tomorrow/sunday:
going to church and going to get the things that i want since i sacraficed my whole saturday to watch bratty little kids.
good weekend huh? anywho i've been extremely emotional this weekend and i don't know if there's something wrong with me.
i need someone to cheer me up because i'm feeling extremely shitty and pissed and i need friends since i have neglected and ignored some of them.
jen is the exception. good times jen. i need some friends and i just want to stab myself in the face because i am the most negative and bitchy person that i know.
if you know me, you know that. i have realized that in the past i can be. what you call a "bitch" but it's cool because i really am a bitch.
wow i don't even know why i'm saying all this because i guarentee that no one cares what i say but i have to let this out some where and to anyone.
i've tried numerous times to make myself a better and more positive person but it's so difficult since i've thought negatively about everything thing since the age of four.
if you've taken the time to read this, i feel sorry for you to listen to me bitch and complain about how shitty i think my life is and how i want to renew this thing i think i am.
whatever that means. sometimes i'm so frustrated that i can't control these spurts of tempertantrums or when i just explode on anyone, to anyone.
i wish there was something i could say to make people want to hang out with me but there is no hope for me and this is why i have no friends.
no wonder people hate me and look at me like "what the fuck are you doing with your life you piece of shit".
but it's understandable. sometimes. i feel extremely gay for this whole "bagging-on-myself" right now.
i hate myself for making people feel like shit and for being an asshole to practically everyone.
comment if you must. i'm ending this ridiculous thing.
goodnight
did absolutely nothing except watch the notebook with my good friend brogen
tonight/saturday:
watched my niece and nephew all day and i want someone to shoot me.
i don't think i'm doing much for the rest of the night because my boyfriend's "chilling with some people".
it's cool that i'm by myself cranky and tired. couldn't take it out on anyone.
tomorrow/sunday:
going to church and going to get the things that i want since i sacraficed my whole saturday to watch bratty little kids.
good weekend huh? anywho i've been extremely emotional this weekend and i don't know if there's something wrong with me.
i need someone to cheer me up because i'm feeling extremely shitty and pissed and i need friends since i have neglected and ignored some of them.
jen is the exception. good times jen. i need some friends and i just want to stab myself in the face because i am the most negative and bitchy person that i know.
if you know me, you know that. i have realized that in the past i can be. what you call a "bitch" but it's cool because i really am a bitch.
wow i don't even know why i'm saying all this because i guarentee that no one cares what i say but i have to let this out some where and to anyone.
i've tried numerous times to make myself a better and more positive person but it's so difficult since i've thought negatively about everything thing since the age of four.
if you've taken the time to read this, i feel sorry for you to listen to me bitch and complain about how shitty i think my life is and how i want to renew this thing i think i am.
whatever that means. sometimes i'm so frustrated that i can't control these spurts of tempertantrums or when i just explode on anyone, to anyone.
i wish there was something i could say to make people want to hang out with me but there is no hope for me and this is why i have no friends.
no wonder people hate me and look at me like "what the fuck are you doing with your life you piece of shit".
but it's understandable. sometimes. i feel extremely gay for this whole "bagging-on-myself" right now.
i hate myself for making people feel like shit and for being an asshole to practically everyone.
comment if you must. i'm ending this ridiculous thing.
goodnight