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so ive been thinking alot.
about life in general.
friends.
fun. the whole nine yards.
i remember things. and i know i cant go back but feeling them just makes me want to call my friends. and tell them that im gone.
so im sure you did not even care. but it was supposed to somewhat special. even if things will never change. grow. advance. whatever word of development you want to use. it will never be. im sorry that i tried to make it work. well kinda. i take that back i never truly tried. but it never truly mattered. does anything matter? does it matter? or was it all just planned out to be another strikethrough on the list...probably the latter. and because of you. because of that. i am e m o t i o n l e s s . and will always be stagnant to any kind of affection. thank you.
and as for you...one of my best friends. i know things are going well now. i know everything is happening for you. but dont neglect our friendship because of recent events. the dissapointment. the mood changes. and who can forget hte awkward occurances in which we find each other..but talk to me at least. dont give me that weird, "friend from the past" conversation...i love u and always will want wahts best.. please dont leave me here. in this place. alone.
i hope they know who they are.
also.
alex im glad we hungout. dont be a stranger.ily
about life in general.
friends.
fun. the whole nine yards.
i remember things. and i know i cant go back but feeling them just makes me want to call my friends. and tell them that im gone.
so im sure you did not even care. but it was supposed to somewhat special. even if things will never change. grow. advance. whatever word of development you want to use. it will never be. im sorry that i tried to make it work. well kinda. i take that back i never truly tried. but it never truly mattered. does anything matter? does it matter? or was it all just planned out to be another strikethrough on the list...probably the latter. and because of you. because of that. i am e m o t i o n l e s s . and will always be stagnant to any kind of affection. thank you.
and as for you...one of my best friends. i know things are going well now. i know everything is happening for you. but dont neglect our friendship because of recent events. the dissapointment. the mood changes. and who can forget hte awkward occurances in which we find each other..but talk to me at least. dont give me that weird, "friend from the past" conversation...i love u and always will want wahts best.. please dont leave me here. in this place. alone.
i hope they know who they are.
also.
alex im glad we hungout. dont be a stranger.ily