Rock My World (Chapter 12)
Pairing: JongKey
Rating: PG-15
Genre: Rock musical!AU, Romance & Drama
Beta-ed by: desiderada
Disclaimer: I wish.
Summary: When Onew leaves the Korean production of RoA, Jonghyun is promoted to lead singer in his place and a new actor is also hired. Sparks fly, drama ensues - Rock & Roll.
( And then he wished he hadn’t. )
Rating: PG-15
Genre: Rock musical!AU, Romance & Drama
Beta-ed by: desiderada
Disclaimer: I wish.
Summary: When Onew leaves the Korean production of RoA, Jonghyun is promoted to lead singer in his place and a new actor is also hired. Sparks fly, drama ensues - Rock & Roll.
( And then he wished he hadn’t. )
so. I'll get started now. no time to waste.
Jonghyun was lonely. no, that's cool. just break my heart with the very first line.
Jonghyun used to stare out of his bedroom window and wonder if there was really someone out there meant for him. Now he would stare out of his bedroom window and think of Kibum. oh dear lord this kills my heart :'c
It was harder to keep track of days when one didn’t have a smiling face to look forward to, a kiss, a touch, a simple caress. like I said above. jfdasljfdlajfdal :'c
“You honestly don’t believe these rumours, do you?” the bright-haired boy asked. TAEMIN, LET ME HUG YOU OMFG. I love this so much. because Jonghyun was about to just blindly buy into whatever they all said, but Taemin snapped him out of it. I love this. all of the much.
When Jonghyun pressed to know who exactly had been saying that, the director could only name two: Jino and Jessica. >:S of course it was them. of course.
He needed to see Key again, not phone him or text him, which was why he climbed up the stairs to the director’s office one night after the show to look through files. be a ninja, Jonghyun, you need him!!
He was tired, but also incredibly anxious because whether he liked it or not they were over, and this would most likely be just a final goodbye.
Key had lied to him. Used him. It was time to move on. /sigh. the sad reality. I only hate it because it's absolutely true.
Before he knew it, the door suddenly opened and he was standing face to face (or face to chest) with a tall, fit guy he was pretty sure he had never seen before in his life. freaking the fuck out, tbh. omfg. please please please don't let Key be cheating on him..
“I didn’t know you had a brother,” Jonghyun said, but didn’t even believe in his own words because he just knew that the guy hadn’t been Key’s brother.
“I don’t,” /brb choking
“He’s my roommate,” ALL of the relief in the world. I have it.
“My parents walked out on me eleven years ago,” .. and I start crying again.
wahh his life.. I honestly wouldn't have expected something like that. but it just goes to show that from the beginning, Jonghyun really didn't know much about Key at all..
"But then I couldn’t quit because I’d met you.” MY HEART.
“For the first time, I felt important. You made me feel important, like I was worth something for once and with you I could forget about how much cash I had in my pockets, about how many debts I had to repay. With you, I could just be me,” he said simply, ending with a small shrug. LIKE I SAID. MY HEART. OMFG I don't even know what to do with myself.. should I be happy or sad or should I cry and I don't even.
Jonghyun’s hand curled around the thin boy’s waist despite his previous concerns of being cautious with his heart. I can't tell if this is a good or a bad idea and I feel stupid for liking it so much but I DO.
“I was so afraid of losing you, of pushing you away by telling you the truth. he's just so sad and broken and god this is so much sadder than I expected it to be but at least it's not as bad as I expected either..
I can’t give you a happy-ever-after. .. let me hug you.
I was behind on my bills but I didn’t care in love and blind to the rest of the world and this is tragic and romantic all at the same time.
I know I don’t deserve you but I never meant to use you, even though I guess I did. I’m sorry. For everything. and my heart. it breaks. I lovelovelove how honest he's being, though. for the first time in the story or not, he's finally laying everything out and the thing that he thought was the most important (Jonghyun) was the thing that he wasn't ever lying about.. he always did like him, and even though my heart is, like, shattered by now, that really warms my heart all the same :')
“I-I was a virgin before you.” .. come here let me hug you oh my god you're tearing my heart out, bb.. just the way that he seems so terrified to tell him about that.. :'c
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Their tears dripped down their cheeks, seeping into their kiss and Jonghyun had never felt quite like he did in that moment, with Kibum - the real Kibum, the one that was honest and hurt and insecure and still so incredibly beautiful - in his arms and with his heart in his throat. this is beautiful. I can't even express. it's simple at the same time that it's so relevant to everything that'd happened.. it's really just.. gorgeous.
“I don’t care,” he spoke again as Kibum kissed him desperately. “I love you.” legit crying now. what did I just say about "beautiful"?
.. also, Jonghyun is shameless and I love it. just saying.
at least until the tune of Big Bang’s “Love Song” could be heard from the kitchen, where Kibum’s roommate had surely turned up the volume as revenge for the past half hour this. I love this. XDXD
“Move in with me,” GOOD IDEA. I LIKE THIS IDEA.
“Sounds good to me,” he mumbled against the soft flesh, ME TOO. SOUNDS GOOD TO ME TOO.
Jonghyun laughed, but Taemin had given him an idea that was worth considering. ...jfkdlsajfdlksajfdlskajflsda
Roo was ecstatic to see Kibum again, running circles around his feet and almost making him trip as he hauled a large box into Jonghyun’s apartment. Well, their apartment. Roo is so cute. so so so so so cute and "THEIR APARTMENT" let me die :') this turn of events is so happy. I love this.
“God, you’re such a puppy,” :'D
The boys even let the bedroom door open sometimes and she loved nothing more than to snuggle in warm sheets with them. true story. dogs love to snuggle.
Jonghyun eventually told Kibum of his plans to leave the musical and to audition for SM. He also urged Kibum to try out himself, because in the end they had nothing to lose and everything to gain. ALSO A GOOD IDEA. they only have good ideas and I love it.
“Hey,” Jonghyun spoke softly, running a hand down Kibum’s arm and smiling a bit when he stirred, watching him blink away the sleep from his eyes. my heart. omfg this is exactly the reality I wanted.
“I love you,” he whispered before sinking back into the mattress against Kibum. Key slowly turned around, one of his hands coming to rest on Jonghyun’s small hip, nose pressing into Jonghyun’s throat. He nuzzled Jonghyun’s jaw and the elder understood at once; he tilted his head to press their lips together. Jonghyun knew what he meant, Kibum didn’t need to say it -
“I love you too.” IT'S SO FLUFFY AND DOMESTIC AND MY HEART IS ABOUT TO EXPLODE INTO TEDDY BEARS OR SOMETHING.
Jonghyun was dead set on leaving this life behind. GOOD. stick with your decision, Jonghyun. the stupid cast isn't worth your time >:C the only good thing to come from being in that show was Key.
“I thought you loved me,” the blond mumbled with a pout that had Key reaching over to poke his cheek with a chuckle, which only made Jonghyun pout more. /is a blubbering mess of tears and happiness because THE CUTE.
“You suck.”
“Mmm, you would know.” A wink. SHAMELESS. perfect. XD
When the administrators learned that they had all worked on the same production with one of their trainees, Onew, they were quick to place the four boys in a tentative boy band that remained unnamed. but.. but.. jfdsalkjfkdlsajfdklsa omfg I'm so excited ajfdjasf
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Jonghyun and Kibum weren’t the only ones feeling a little awkward when they had received lyrics about pretty noonas and school boy love so they were given another song, this time about an angel’s whisper and the devil’s undeniable spell. yes. I can't imagine these guys, having just come from a rock musical of all things, to be comfortable with Replay.. I can totally see them switching over to Lucifer. hell yes.
A name that perfectly described Kibum’s - Almighty Key’s - eyes when Jonghyun took him to the top of the observatory to celebrate their upcoming debut, to kiss him, to tell him how proud he was and to tell him how much he loved him. AND THEY GIVE SHINEE RELEVANCE and this is so beautiful.
But you already know that name, don’t you? I SURE DO. ajflkdjsalkfdjsaklfjdasklfjdsa
perfect ending is perfect, tbh.
/but I'm telling myself that this isn't the ending because there's still the epilogue left and this is late because I don't want to accept that this is over and this is totally a run-on sentence and still it's going on.
long story short, I will save the rest of my tears for the REAL last update.
whenever that will be.
I WILL WAIT FOREVER.
but this, though, seriously.. a wonderful way to wrap up the main storyline. because Key wasn't a bad guy and in the end they still love each other, and they get to be in the group all together.. of course, that's going to cause problems within itself, but at least they get to be together and I'm so happy for my babies you have no idea. :')
thankyouthankyouthankyou for this perfect ending. I can't wait to read the epilogue :'D
(oh, also I just remembered you said that a line in this was the same as mae.. I honestly didn't even catch it XD I knew I wouldn't.. hahah)
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That gif T.T
Lollll, I actually like the few first lines! Sorry they had to be heartbreaking :/
Taemin is just... sneaky.
About Key's past, I did drop a few microscopic hints throughout the other chapters, but mostly Key just lied about it. It's not that he didn't "want" to tell Jonghyun, it's that he was afraid to, I guess. And yeah, Jonghyun didn't know anything about his past, but in his own way he did know Key very well still (like his personality? - his habits, etc). Yeah, sorry for rambling xD
"should I be happy or sad or should I cry and I don't even" <= Lollll. I remember writing that entire part and being all what-is-this-even teehee *puddle of emotions*
"he's just so sad and broken" you pretty much nailed it :')
*group hug*
But yay! Some of it warmed your heart <3 he was always truthful about Jonghyun at least :)
"THIS IS SUCH AN EMOTIONAL ROLLERCOASTER" xDDDD
*blushes* thank you
Yes. Shameless Jonghyun is shameless.
Such good ideas they had, no? xD haha
I adore Roo. She's awesome. But mostly just clueless.
I had a lot of fun writing sleepy Key :D
And of course, I had to give them a fluffy ending. Yes.
I'm glad fictional SHINee could make you excited haha xD
The last line was a bit self-indulgent I admit :3
Glad you're happy ^^ really, thank you so much for reading and commenting and I love you. <3 Merci <3
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