some people call me the space cowboy
today was shitty.. i got an a- on my world studies class. i cried so much because of that. i was so mad. then i come home and me and my daddy get in a fight. but were cool now. he bought me a pack of ciggarettes to apoligize which was a good thing because he got me my ports!!! i didnt really get to talk to bryan at all today. he sent me a message through myspace but it didnt say much. i am truly in love with him. and i know he is too. i can see me and him together for a long long long time aka forever!!! lol. its only been 5 days but it feels a lot longer than that. brand new and dashboard confessional are my favorite bands right now. they make me so happy. i miss jason so much. me and him are getting close like we used to be. which is good because i miss that nigga. lol i shouldnt say nigga. im too white for that shit. i cant wait to see everyone the 11th. its gonna be the shit. its gonna be kinda akward though because nick is gonna be there too and yeah. i dont know how thats going to be. and bryan's aunt lives 2 streets down from where they boys are going to be wrestling so hopefully he will be there. i hope nick doesnt get all mad but hes bringing jeni so hopefully things will be okay and im pretty sure that they will. im no long going to kettering thank god. i fucking hate that school. so now im staying at mott all day woot woot!!! ive been crying basically all day today since i found out my grade in world studies. im such a fucking nerd. i need to get over myself. i miss being in chior. i love singing but i suck at it and i smoke so its not that great anymore. my mom is stressing really bad because of my daddys probation. its really killing her for money and with my dad being unemployed it sucks even more. but im staying strong for my parents hoping that it puts them in a better mood. but it seems like im making it worse. next year me and christina are getting an apartment. PARTY CENTRAL!!! my mom already said that i could move out.. its not that i dont like living here its that i feel like a burden to my mom. im not exactly the best kid either. but im trying to help out more. i need to make improvements in a lot of places in my life. will is a great listener. he is my brother no dobut. i love him like one at least and he looks at me as a little sister which makes me feel good because i have always wanted a big brother. i have one but i have never met him. which really depresses me. hopefully one day i can meet him. but will makes a great big brother. i would be so lost if it wasnt for him. he always makes me feel better when im down. and hes always there for me. its like he knows when i am having a shitty day because when i sign online hes always on. he is soo awesome. acoustic music makes me happy. its late im going to bed.