Some Times It Hits You
Just how lucky you are to be with the person you are with. Before J I never had it easy in the relationship department. We got in a fight yesturday, it was the first one in a few months, and it wasn't even bad, he never at any point disagreed with me or looked at me like I was insane. I was able to tell him why I was mad (he did somthing really stupid, and didn't think about how bad it would look to me) and he agreed with me and apologized... End of fight! Tonight we went out and grabed a quick bite with Gabe and when we came home and put him to bed he helped me with a sewing project. (which i have quit for the night because I am way to tired... but SO close to finnishing). Yeah my boyfriend... who could have used me focusing on sewing as time to catch up on video games... helped me make a purse....
Well anyhoo during our fight yesturday I got really upset and realized how selfish I am. I was upset that my life is taking off in the career aspect and school aspect and I am mad that our relationship isn't "taking off". I have talked about it so much before, and this is the girl that didn't even think she wanted to get married a year and a half ago! So I mean realy what is my problem. I guess it's just normal to feel like everything should just move along in a natural progression. Needless to say when I really thought about it I realized how stupid my rationality was. I am lucky I am with the man I can even see myself with forever.
I am so incredibly proud of him every day. He is a fantastic father and a wonderful man. He treats me with love and most importantly respect (after all men that BEAT the woman they are with claim it's "love" so what is it without respect right?). He has changed his priorities in life, and ring or not, we come before any video game, bar, or night with friends any day of the week, and he has come a long way. I can't help but laugh at how sterotypical we are going to be, the teacher and the cop... haha. I have a long way to go before I am a full teacher, I will be going to school nights while I am teaching at the daycare. It's a long way away but it still makes me chuckel.
Well anyhoo during our fight yesturday I got really upset and realized how selfish I am. I was upset that my life is taking off in the career aspect and school aspect and I am mad that our relationship isn't "taking off". I have talked about it so much before, and this is the girl that didn't even think she wanted to get married a year and a half ago! So I mean realy what is my problem. I guess it's just normal to feel like everything should just move along in a natural progression. Needless to say when I really thought about it I realized how stupid my rationality was. I am lucky I am with the man I can even see myself with forever.
I am so incredibly proud of him every day. He is a fantastic father and a wonderful man. He treats me with love and most importantly respect (after all men that BEAT the woman they are with claim it's "love" so what is it without respect right?). He has changed his priorities in life, and ring or not, we come before any video game, bar, or night with friends any day of the week, and he has come a long way. I can't help but laugh at how sterotypical we are going to be, the teacher and the cop... haha. I have a long way to go before I am a full teacher, I will be going to school nights while I am teaching at the daycare. It's a long way away but it still makes me chuckel.