This will be long, and possibly angsty, feel free to scroll past...
Those of you who know me will know that this isn't a good time of year for me. I choose to turn this to reflectiveness in this instance. Feel free to scroll past.
I have decided to review things in sections for the last 10 years (my God, time flies, doesn't it?).
15 - 17: For the first time I struck out on my own, but not really. I was back and forth between my place and home, I made good friends although I am only in regular contact with one now. Many of my friends were really just made because of mutual convenience. Honesty was at a premium, that's what you get when your best friend is a pathological liar.
18 - 20: A tumultous time. Lost the patholigical liar. At 19, went into self imposed period of chastity. Lost the drug habit. Started working regularly for the first time. Decided that I wanted a stable life, with a close family and security, and set about trying to achieve that. Realised that I was probably bi, and began internally mourning the fact.
21: This year was very much a transitional phase for me. Decided to take actual steps to achieve what I wanted family wise. Went back and finshed school. Remembered how to live on minimal cash. Became closer with my little sister, who I'm not actually related to. Those who know me will know who this is.
22 - 23: Ended my period of chastity. Had the first worthwhile romantic relationship of my life. Started uni. Moved out of home for good. Realised that my family aren't the sort of people I really wanted to be close to. Realised what it was to truly love someone, to the point where you want what's best for them, even if it's not what's best for you. Realised for the first time, in a real way, that life doesn't always turn out how it is planned. Went back to work. Got the job I'm currently in. Became acquainted with lj. Broke up from my only signifcant partner, albeit with a now vindicated intention of being best friends forever. Renewed an old acquaintence, and became best mates with him. Came out to ex partner first, then everyone else gradually. Moved into the apartment I'm in currently. Joined lj for myself.
24 - 25: Perhaps the happiest time of my life. Made the close friends I currently have. Decided I was no longer interested in my parents' approval. Returned to uni, whilst working. Realised I don't actually want children, or probably a wife. That's it so far!
Thankyou to those who read. And a particularly big thankyou to those of you who've listened to me whinge on a regular basis.
Hugs to you all!
I have decided to review things in sections for the last 10 years (my God, time flies, doesn't it?).
15 - 17: For the first time I struck out on my own, but not really. I was back and forth between my place and home, I made good friends although I am only in regular contact with one now. Many of my friends were really just made because of mutual convenience. Honesty was at a premium, that's what you get when your best friend is a pathological liar.
18 - 20: A tumultous time. Lost the patholigical liar. At 19, went into self imposed period of chastity. Lost the drug habit. Started working regularly for the first time. Decided that I wanted a stable life, with a close family and security, and set about trying to achieve that. Realised that I was probably bi, and began internally mourning the fact.
21: This year was very much a transitional phase for me. Decided to take actual steps to achieve what I wanted family wise. Went back and finshed school. Remembered how to live on minimal cash. Became closer with my little sister, who I'm not actually related to. Those who know me will know who this is.
22 - 23: Ended my period of chastity. Had the first worthwhile romantic relationship of my life. Started uni. Moved out of home for good. Realised that my family aren't the sort of people I really wanted to be close to. Realised what it was to truly love someone, to the point where you want what's best for them, even if it's not what's best for you. Realised for the first time, in a real way, that life doesn't always turn out how it is planned. Went back to work. Got the job I'm currently in. Became acquainted with lj. Broke up from my only signifcant partner, albeit with a now vindicated intention of being best friends forever. Renewed an old acquaintence, and became best mates with him. Came out to ex partner first, then everyone else gradually. Moved into the apartment I'm in currently. Joined lj for myself.
24 - 25: Perhaps the happiest time of my life. Made the close friends I currently have. Decided I was no longer interested in my parents' approval. Returned to uni, whilst working. Realised I don't actually want children, or probably a wife. That's it so far!
Thankyou to those who read. And a particularly big thankyou to those of you who've listened to me whinge on a regular basis.
Hugs to you all!