so confused!
** i know that right now on the out side its seems like im my self! all happy, hyper, laugh'n & smile'n! but i dont feel that way at all in side! & it really sucks! cuz jus when i start 2 think that things r go'n back 2 normal somethin happens & then its back 2 square 1! i dont know what 2 do anymore! i really dont! i have so many feel'ns is side that i jus cant let out! i seriously feel like im break'n down & i dont know what 2 do 2 stop it! things r change'n & i absolutly HATE it! me & change dont get along very well! there r jus so many things go'n on in my life right now that its mess'n w/ my head! i jus need 2 take a break & get away from it all 4 a few days! i feel like poo! i fell like theres no one that truely likes me! i feel like no ones there for me! i feel like i dont belong here any more! i really jus dont know any more! there r jus so many things go'n throughts my head right now i dont even know what 2 write! i jus want things 2 be how they used to be! i wanna be me again! **
~ well other then the stuff above things r go'n "good" i guess!
- i have the best grades ive had since bout 7th grade!
- im take’n my road test 2marrow!!
- I LOVE MY NEW FRIENDS! (ash, lisa & chelle)
- poms is so much fun!
- lunch 2day was so much fun!
- we dont have school 2marrow!!
- i think i might like some one…..BUT……yea theres a BIG BUT w/ that statement!
- i LOVE the fact that me & KRISTIN r so much closer then we used 2 be! I LOVE HER SO MUCH! we have way to much fun in Mettis class!
- finally….there are a lot of really good songs out right now!!
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Simple Plan
- Welcome To My Life -
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't b e l o n g
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel l o s t
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking d o w n
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desparate to find something m o r e ?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you s i c k of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel l o s t
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking d o w n
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever l i e d straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be o k a y
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like what it's like
To be hurt
To feel l o s t
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking d o w n
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like, what it's like
Welcome to my life