a new chapter
this past weekend helped me realize what i really want out of my life. new things, new thoughts. i've been so focused on my life, i forgot how to help others. i was so involved with my feelings.... what a joke. my feelings will heal. there are far worse things that would happen to me. i see all of my friends and family suffering, wanting, needing. i honestly evaluated everyone i know tonight. it seems everyone has their set of problems, some worse than others. and everyone has far worse problems than me. not one person in my life is truly happy. it's sad to see, but it's what i've observed. but yet i'm the one complaining about how tough my life is? give me a break. i've been so selfish. i haven't been honest with myself until now. i used to be that person who did his best to heal situations, and for a while, i felt like i was making a difference. but i've strayed from that. it's time for a change, and i know this change won't happen on it's own.
i'm going to live a happy life. i'm going to live for others, like i used to. because that is what matters.