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The swelling in my jaw has mostly gone down. The bruising is fading away. Physical pain heals much faster then emotional. I take my lumps when I deserve them. And I deserved this. I don't know why I've been doing the things I do. My mind seems to be on autopilot and it's as if I'm on the outside watching somebody else control me. Reading Jani's post made what I thought was the right thing, feel so horribly wrong. All that's left is to immerse myself in recording and hope it distracts me well enough for now.