feelings
1) i wanna shoot myself in the head.
2) useless
3) hopeless
4) third/fourth wheelish
5) like im on fucking house arrest.
6) alone
7) self destructive
8) pissed off as all hell
9) like i want to kill some one but i will not name names
10) like i wanted to get wasted
11) liek i wanna get high
i want to feel numb like nothing can touch me nothing can hurt me godamnit. i had that feeling on wendsday why the fuck to you think i smoke and drink damnit. but nooooo my goddamn over protective EVIL THING OF A MOTHER. keeps me on house arrest so i cant do shit or go anywhere then she gets pissed when people come over here and im like WHERE THE FUCK ARE WE SAPPOSE TO GO YOU WANT ME TO HAVE FREINDS BUT YOU WONT LET ME LEAVE THE GODDAMN HOUSE.
i want to stay out till odd hours in the morning i want to have no care in the world i want to feel numb all the time.. or maybe not even numb but maybe happy just maybe be able to smile when no ones looking or be able to walk around and not worry about who the fuck im going to see that i seriously most deffinitally dont want to see.
i want do live in a whole differnet world where shit doesn matter. like me and sam . damn we dont give a shit about alot of shit but this shit just keeps coming towards me which is then on her becuase she tries to make me feel better. then mark shows me his nut to make me laugh for once. and god i jsut want to get out of here. one night i swear to god im going out and im not fucking coming back for like a week. i can find someplace to stay or places if nessecary.
I dont want to have to act like an adult im only 16 i just want to be llike a regular 16 yearold i dont want to worry about switching school becuase of harrasment i dont want to have to take care of my mother. i dont want to have to go visit my dad. i dont want to be the one to get the goddamn groceries. i dont want to worry about SHIT!! i dont want to have to worry about weather my little sister is crying herself to sleep or if shes okay or if shes going to end up like me.
I just want NOTHING
I just want to LET GO
i just want to BE HAPPY!!!!!
I WANT TO BE HAPPY!!!!
2) useless
3) hopeless
4) third/fourth wheelish
5) like im on fucking house arrest.
6) alone
7) self destructive
8) pissed off as all hell
9) like i want to kill some one but i will not name names
10) like i wanted to get wasted
11) liek i wanna get high
i want to feel numb like nothing can touch me nothing can hurt me godamnit. i had that feeling on wendsday why the fuck to you think i smoke and drink damnit. but nooooo my goddamn over protective EVIL THING OF A MOTHER. keeps me on house arrest so i cant do shit or go anywhere then she gets pissed when people come over here and im like WHERE THE FUCK ARE WE SAPPOSE TO GO YOU WANT ME TO HAVE FREINDS BUT YOU WONT LET ME LEAVE THE GODDAMN HOUSE.
i want to stay out till odd hours in the morning i want to have no care in the world i want to feel numb all the time.. or maybe not even numb but maybe happy just maybe be able to smile when no ones looking or be able to walk around and not worry about who the fuck im going to see that i seriously most deffinitally dont want to see.
i want do live in a whole differnet world where shit doesn matter. like me and sam . damn we dont give a shit about alot of shit but this shit just keeps coming towards me which is then on her becuase she tries to make me feel better. then mark shows me his nut to make me laugh for once. and god i jsut want to get out of here. one night i swear to god im going out and im not fucking coming back for like a week. i can find someplace to stay or places if nessecary.
I dont want to have to act like an adult im only 16 i just want to be llike a regular 16 yearold i dont want to worry about switching school becuase of harrasment i dont want to have to take care of my mother. i dont want to have to go visit my dad. i dont want to be the one to get the goddamn groceries. i dont want to worry about SHIT!! i dont want to have to worry about weather my little sister is crying herself to sleep or if shes okay or if shes going to end up like me.
I just want NOTHING
I just want to LET GO
i just want to BE HAPPY!!!!!
I WANT TO BE HAPPY!!!!