Mood Swings, Cops, and Magic
Its been a busy and exhausting week, and it unfortunately all started with Crazy Co-Worker early Monday morning {WAY before the incident at lunch, which only fueled my over-emotional response}. I won't get into details, but needless to say its going to be a very long couple of months working with this woman that goes out of her way to tell me how much better she is than me with every word she speaks. Its like its her job to belittle me, reminding me how I was wrong to think that the people I work with appreciate what I do, when that's what I thought.
I want to say thank you to the people for the kind words. It had been a long day, and I was WAAAAY too emotional and completely irrational {which unfortunately I do have a history of, but it hasn't been a problem for a while - yay!}. The guy {who was a nice looking 50+ man in a BMW} was quite skeevy. I think the reason I was most upset about the whole thing was that Crazy Co-Worker didn't even think about what was going on and just continued to giggle like an idiot.
What amuses me is, even if the guy had just randomly told me I was pretty, I would have been just as angry at him. I'm cynical that way, because in my mind, anyone that is flirting with me is obviously making fun of me. I've always thought that, and always will. *shrugs* Low self-esteem is a heartless bitch.
And to the Anon who just flat out told me I was 'pathetic', my first reaction was to just reply with a 'fuck you', but that would totally have been lame. I'm in a good mood today, and even though you could have been a bit less of a jerk, you were right. I got home that day took a deep breath and realized it was a bit of an overreaction, and honestly, everyone is allowed to have a bit of meltdown every now and then. However, the people who had posted previously had gotten that point across without acting like a child. If you don't like my mood swings - don't read and please leave. Thank you.
The next morning I took the hubby to the airport for his business trip out in Cali. I had to get up at 3:30am to make sure he got to the airport by 5, so I didn't get back to sleep until 6, and had to be up at 7 for work. Ick. I was EXHAUSTED!
Wednesday was a very, very stressful day. Hubby's work got tickets for his company to sit in the Press Box at the Magic game, but since he was out of town I didn't want to go by myself. Mom is a HUGE Magic fan, so she planned on going with me. She left Jax early that morning and stopped by the hospital to see my uncle while I was working. My mom's sister's husband is currently in the hospital because of a tumor and cancer, and my mom told me it didn't look very good at all. She was glad she got to come down and see them though, and I'm sure it made my aunt very happy to see her. Even though they live 2 hours away, they rarely get to see each other.
I left work early for a doctor's appt. A yearly exam, but I wanted to talk about the issues with my body including my heightened emotional state. I go back in for some bloodwork in a few weeks. After the appt mom and I chilled at the house until it was time to head downtown to the Arena. The game was a lot of fun and Amway Arena is REALLY nice. I also think I made my mom's year for bringing her! :D It was so great to see her so extremely happy for once.
Of course, something had to ruin the night, just because I'm not allowed to be happy. We're trying to get out of downtown and I'm completely lost. My mom's got her GPS out and we're doing our best. We see a sign for I-4 and I get to the intersection to turn right. I stop, look, see that the entire intersection is empty, and turn onto the road. I go only a few feet when there's suddenly a cop behind me. My mom and I are extremely confused, especially when two cops get out of the car and they're shining flash lights inside. When the cop finally gets to me and asks for all the stuff they normally do, I ask him why he pulled me over, because I honestly have no earthly clue. He response was 'I'll tell you when you give me what I asked for.'. I do and he proceeds to be a complete asshole. "Back there at that intersection there's this white square sign with black writing on it that says 'no turn on red'" I'm FLABBERGASTED! I looked ALL around that intersection and I didn't see it! My mom didn't either! We waited, and the other guy {the one that had come up on my mother's side} gave me the ticket. He was MUCH nicer than the guy that originally came up. He explained what had happened, and that he was 'very disconcerted' that I hadn't seen the sign. I was almost compelled to agree because that's honestly not something that I would have missed. So, in the end I got a citation for $164 and points on my license. He said that since I stopped at the light and my driving record was pretty damn good {duh} he would give me that instead of a ticket for running a red light, which would have been more {and NOT what I did}. I loved how he made it seem like he was being considerate for not giving me the ticket.
And to make matters worse, I couldn't pull out into the street because the asshole {the first cop that came to my window} had his spotlight in full force shining into my side mirror - which prevented me from being able to see if it was safe for me to pull out into traffic. While I'm all for safety of the officers, they were both in their car, not standing next to mine. The last thing I needed was to get into an accident as well.
While I agree that because I didn't see the sign, I honestly deserved the ticket, the thing that kind of bothers me is that the entire downtown area was fully of drunks, people driving while intoxicated or with opened containers of alcohol, people running red lights driving directly through busy intersections. But these guys felt the need to pull me over for turning right in an empty intersection. No harm to me or to other people. It was just silly, and I figured their resources could have been used for something a little more...dangerous than what I did. But, what's done is done. I've got got a ticket and a fun online course to take. Life's just peachy.
So, that was Wednesday!
Thursday was completely uneventful except I was a sobbing mess. These DAMN EMOTIONS keep fucking with my head! I sat all day at my desk in a deep funk that I just couldn't shake. I cried in the car all the way home, just because I felt like I needed to. And honestly, it helped a lot! :D I came home, had a chicken salad sandwich and half a pint of Ben & Jerry's Half Baked ice cream {comfort food, yum!} and watched Season 4 of The Guild with commentary {thank you Netflix!}. Went to bed around 9:30pm feeling a million times better.
I felt even better yesterday and much more today. And today my reason for being super happy is that Hubby finished his work early and instead of coming home on Monday evening, he's coming in today! :D :D So happy!
I want to say thank you to the people for the kind words. It had been a long day, and I was WAAAAY too emotional and completely irrational {which unfortunately I do have a history of, but it hasn't been a problem for a while - yay!}. The guy {who was a nice looking 50+ man in a BMW} was quite skeevy. I think the reason I was most upset about the whole thing was that Crazy Co-Worker didn't even think about what was going on and just continued to giggle like an idiot.
What amuses me is, even if the guy had just randomly told me I was pretty, I would have been just as angry at him. I'm cynical that way, because in my mind, anyone that is flirting with me is obviously making fun of me. I've always thought that, and always will. *shrugs* Low self-esteem is a heartless bitch.
And to the Anon who just flat out told me I was 'pathetic', my first reaction was to just reply with a 'fuck you', but that would totally have been lame. I'm in a good mood today, and even though you could have been a bit less of a jerk, you were right. I got home that day took a deep breath and realized it was a bit of an overreaction, and honestly, everyone is allowed to have a bit of meltdown every now and then. However, the people who had posted previously had gotten that point across without acting like a child. If you don't like my mood swings - don't read and please leave. Thank you.
The next morning I took the hubby to the airport for his business trip out in Cali. I had to get up at 3:30am to make sure he got to the airport by 5, so I didn't get back to sleep until 6, and had to be up at 7 for work. Ick. I was EXHAUSTED!
Wednesday was a very, very stressful day. Hubby's work got tickets for his company to sit in the Press Box at the Magic game, but since he was out of town I didn't want to go by myself. Mom is a HUGE Magic fan, so she planned on going with me. She left Jax early that morning and stopped by the hospital to see my uncle while I was working. My mom's sister's husband is currently in the hospital because of a tumor and cancer, and my mom told me it didn't look very good at all. She was glad she got to come down and see them though, and I'm sure it made my aunt very happy to see her. Even though they live 2 hours away, they rarely get to see each other.
I left work early for a doctor's appt. A yearly exam, but I wanted to talk about the issues with my body including my heightened emotional state. I go back in for some bloodwork in a few weeks. After the appt mom and I chilled at the house until it was time to head downtown to the Arena. The game was a lot of fun and Amway Arena is REALLY nice. I also think I made my mom's year for bringing her! :D It was so great to see her so extremely happy for once.
Of course, something had to ruin the night, just because I'm not allowed to be happy. We're trying to get out of downtown and I'm completely lost. My mom's got her GPS out and we're doing our best. We see a sign for I-4 and I get to the intersection to turn right. I stop, look, see that the entire intersection is empty, and turn onto the road. I go only a few feet when there's suddenly a cop behind me. My mom and I are extremely confused, especially when two cops get out of the car and they're shining flash lights inside. When the cop finally gets to me and asks for all the stuff they normally do, I ask him why he pulled me over, because I honestly have no earthly clue. He response was 'I'll tell you when you give me what I asked for.'. I do and he proceeds to be a complete asshole. "Back there at that intersection there's this white square sign with black writing on it that says 'no turn on red'" I'm FLABBERGASTED! I looked ALL around that intersection and I didn't see it! My mom didn't either! We waited, and the other guy {the one that had come up on my mother's side} gave me the ticket. He was MUCH nicer than the guy that originally came up. He explained what had happened, and that he was 'very disconcerted' that I hadn't seen the sign. I was almost compelled to agree because that's honestly not something that I would have missed. So, in the end I got a citation for $164 and points on my license. He said that since I stopped at the light and my driving record was pretty damn good {duh} he would give me that instead of a ticket for running a red light, which would have been more {and NOT what I did}. I loved how he made it seem like he was being considerate for not giving me the ticket.
And to make matters worse, I couldn't pull out into the street because the asshole {the first cop that came to my window} had his spotlight in full force shining into my side mirror - which prevented me from being able to see if it was safe for me to pull out into traffic. While I'm all for safety of the officers, they were both in their car, not standing next to mine. The last thing I needed was to get into an accident as well.
While I agree that because I didn't see the sign, I honestly deserved the ticket, the thing that kind of bothers me is that the entire downtown area was fully of drunks, people driving while intoxicated or with opened containers of alcohol, people running red lights driving directly through busy intersections. But these guys felt the need to pull me over for turning right in an empty intersection. No harm to me or to other people. It was just silly, and I figured their resources could have been used for something a little more...dangerous than what I did. But, what's done is done. I've got got a ticket and a fun online course to take. Life's just peachy.
So, that was Wednesday!
Thursday was completely uneventful except I was a sobbing mess. These DAMN EMOTIONS keep fucking with my head! I sat all day at my desk in a deep funk that I just couldn't shake. I cried in the car all the way home, just because I felt like I needed to. And honestly, it helped a lot! :D I came home, had a chicken salad sandwich and half a pint of Ben & Jerry's Half Baked ice cream {comfort food, yum!} and watched Season 4 of The Guild with commentary {thank you Netflix!}. Went to bed around 9:30pm feeling a million times better.
I felt even better yesterday and much more today. And today my reason for being super happy is that Hubby finished his work early and instead of coming home on Monday evening, he's coming in today! :D :D So happy!