Thank You
I wanted to say thank you to everyone's wonderful words to my random crappy mood post. I'm still going through everyone's advice and I'm going to see about working through this.
I can't go back to school because we don't have the money. However, Chris said that once I get a job and start getting a steady paycheck again, we can start saving for me to go back. I just have to pick a subject to study. The problem, as I mentioned, is that I'm not really good at anything that I know of, and I have no idea how to even figure out what I can do. I've tried teaching, sales, admin, hotel front desk. Since I know I'm good at picking up computer programs fast, maybe I could go to become a x-ray tech. I'd like to help people, but I don't think a nurse is the way for me at all. I would like to perhaps learn about sonograms and mammograms and work in a woman's health clinic. Both Chris and my mom think that I should look into it.
But first, once I get a paycheck, our first big purchase will be to re-sod our yard. We just got a final notice from our HOA about our yard. To be honest, we have no idea why they're even sending it to us. Our yard is always mowed and edged. We have TWO different companies spraying our yard for weeds, insects, and nutrients. There shouldn't be a problem, so Chris is going to call them and find out what the hell their problem is. So, added stress.
I don't know why I even post about those bad moods I have because I always know they come and I know what triggers them {besides the fact that I AM fat}. I've ALWAYS had this problem. I have an incredibly happy time to the point I was near tears with excitement, and then the next day I crash and BURN. It was like that in high school. I have a really great happiness high and just as quickly I get the repercussions. No balance, no evening out. My body's like 'You had your fun! NOW YOU GET TO FEEL LIKE SHIT! MWAHAHAHAHAHA!'. Hate it. And my husband thinks I'm joking when I tell him that if I do have a kid, I demand that I will never be left alone with it for at least a few weeks, if not months. I can guarantee I will get postpartum and I'm so paranoid that I'll do something that accidentally kills the child. I've already told friend!Bobby and my mother, so I know they won't leave me alone. However, I know they all think it won't be necessary. If going to a theme park has that much of an affect on me, I'd hate to see what giving birth to a new life will do to me.
As for weight, I'm trying to get back to what I was doing before I got laid off. I was drinking quite a bit of water and since then I haven't had much at all. I'm also going to bed a lot earlier than I was and getting up earlier, which is very, very good. As everyone said, small steps. :)
Today friend!Bobby came over and we went to GameStop, MovieStop, and JoAnn's. I traded in Lego Harry Potter to put towards Dead Rising 2 and ended up getting another year of the membership and having only $7 go towards Dead Rising 2. Not as much as I wanted to go towards the game, but at least its better than nothing. We hopped over to MovieStop and browsed through the sale and I went looking for The IT Crowd {no luck}. Instead I used my remaining credit to put $5 towards the preorder of Sherlock {November 9th is the US release date!! WHOO!}, and ended up buying seasons 1 and 2 of Leverage because I LOVE that show to pieces. :) I eye it every single time I go in there, but never buy it. I caved because I'm in the middle of marathon-ing it again for like, the 5th time in the past couple of months. We also popped in at JoAnn's because friend!Bobby is now obsessed with being a Hufflepuff, the house that we both decided we would be sorted into. He wants me to make him a scarf and I'll more than willing to start my knitting again and he's paying for the yarn! hehe
Tempted to take screenshots and make an animated mood theme, because, you know, I totally need an excuse to sit on my fat ass in front of this computer more. ;)
So, since I'm in a better mood, and I feel bad for putting everyone through my crappy mood, I've got a few albums that I want to share and I'll have the next Gro update posted a little later today! Also, once I find the stupid SD/USB thing, I'll be able to post pictures I took at Hogsmeade! :D
And now Merlin is at 90% and I'm about to hyperventilate I'm so excited. :D
I can't go back to school because we don't have the money. However, Chris said that once I get a job and start getting a steady paycheck again, we can start saving for me to go back. I just have to pick a subject to study. The problem, as I mentioned, is that I'm not really good at anything that I know of, and I have no idea how to even figure out what I can do. I've tried teaching, sales, admin, hotel front desk. Since I know I'm good at picking up computer programs fast, maybe I could go to become a x-ray tech. I'd like to help people, but I don't think a nurse is the way for me at all. I would like to perhaps learn about sonograms and mammograms and work in a woman's health clinic. Both Chris and my mom think that I should look into it.
But first, once I get a paycheck, our first big purchase will be to re-sod our yard. We just got a final notice from our HOA about our yard. To be honest, we have no idea why they're even sending it to us. Our yard is always mowed and edged. We have TWO different companies spraying our yard for weeds, insects, and nutrients. There shouldn't be a problem, so Chris is going to call them and find out what the hell their problem is. So, added stress.
I don't know why I even post about those bad moods I have because I always know they come and I know what triggers them {besides the fact that I AM fat}. I've ALWAYS had this problem. I have an incredibly happy time to the point I was near tears with excitement, and then the next day I crash and BURN. It was like that in high school. I have a really great happiness high and just as quickly I get the repercussions. No balance, no evening out. My body's like 'You had your fun! NOW YOU GET TO FEEL LIKE SHIT! MWAHAHAHAHAHA!'. Hate it. And my husband thinks I'm joking when I tell him that if I do have a kid, I demand that I will never be left alone with it for at least a few weeks, if not months. I can guarantee I will get postpartum and I'm so paranoid that I'll do something that accidentally kills the child. I've already told friend!Bobby and my mother, so I know they won't leave me alone. However, I know they all think it won't be necessary. If going to a theme park has that much of an affect on me, I'd hate to see what giving birth to a new life will do to me.
As for weight, I'm trying to get back to what I was doing before I got laid off. I was drinking quite a bit of water and since then I haven't had much at all. I'm also going to bed a lot earlier than I was and getting up earlier, which is very, very good. As everyone said, small steps. :)
Today friend!Bobby came over and we went to GameStop, MovieStop, and JoAnn's. I traded in Lego Harry Potter to put towards Dead Rising 2 and ended up getting another year of the membership and having only $7 go towards Dead Rising 2. Not as much as I wanted to go towards the game, but at least its better than nothing. We hopped over to MovieStop and browsed through the sale and I went looking for The IT Crowd {no luck}. Instead I used my remaining credit to put $5 towards the preorder of Sherlock {November 9th is the US release date!! WHOO!}, and ended up buying seasons 1 and 2 of Leverage because I LOVE that show to pieces. :) I eye it every single time I go in there, but never buy it. I caved because I'm in the middle of marathon-ing it again for like, the 5th time in the past couple of months. We also popped in at JoAnn's because friend!Bobby is now obsessed with being a Hufflepuff, the house that we both decided we would be sorted into. He wants me to make him a scarf and I'll more than willing to start my knitting again and he's paying for the yarn! hehe
Tempted to take screenshots and make an animated mood theme, because, you know, I totally need an excuse to sit on my fat ass in front of this computer more. ;)
So, since I'm in a better mood, and I feel bad for putting everyone through my crappy mood, I've got a few albums that I want to share and I'll have the next Gro update posted a little later today! Also, once I find the stupid SD/USB thing, I'll be able to post pictures I took at Hogsmeade! :D
And now Merlin is at 90% and I'm about to hyperventilate I'm so excited. :D