Nov 16, 2004 10:01
I officially thought I had scared off Scott after what I said last weekend.
I called him on Saturday, the phone rang three times, and then voice mail. I didn't leave a message, because I know he never checks them.
So yesterday I wake up and my phone is beeping. Scott had called the night before and left a message. "amanda, it's scottie, I haven't heard from you all week and wondered what was up, give me a call back".
So I called him around lunch time, and he called me back around 7 on my way home from work. He told me to stop by on my way home and we'd go get something to eat. I got there right before 8, we talked a little, spent some time trying to figure out how he can reorganize his apartment for Christmas guests, and then went to grab something.
So on the way to dinner, he totally opened up to me. He asked if my parents ask about him, and he said he felt bad, and that he thinks maybe he should come over for dinner sometime, but he still feels conflicted about it. He said he knows if he took me to meet his mom, she'd think we were getting married or something, and he figures my parents wouldn't be that different, and right now we're keeping things casual. He also said he's really happy with me, and that he is thinking of me first, and himself second in the matter. He doesn't want things to be solely physical, which their not, and wants to go out and do other things with me. It was a very good, honest talk. It was nice to know that he gave it some thought, and I reassured him I wasn't going anywhere, and that I didn't expect him to rush right into a relationship. I feel better about things now though, and I was happy that he is thinking about these things. I always assumed we weren't going anywhere, but maybe he'll prove me wrong.
He also was curious as to why I hadn't called him all week, and I told him I was afraid I had freaked him out. He told me I would have to say a lot more than one sentence to freak him out.
So once we got all that out of the way, we had a really nice talk at dinner, and I learned a lot more about him, and he learned a lot more about me. I think it was the first time we had a really great conversation. We got back and watched some TV, and then I left around 11.