i don't know what i'm doing here; i could say that i do but i don't
my paid died and now i have a lot of depressing-ish icons. anyway.
I'm so fucking done with being home. I want to move out to Amsterdam so badly. I want to see Bryn Mawr and my friends again too, but that can wait until January. Moving out has to happen now.
I'm so jealous of my friends who are moving back in this week. You guys who don't live away from home don't get this but living away from your parents... it's totally amazing. You can get up when you want, no one nags you about anything, you just do what you decide you have to do. Everyone I know whose going away to college (like my cousins/friends/brother) are all worried like "blah blah blah what if the school work is so hard or so much" or "baaaawwwww i'm not going to make any friends" i'm like dude.
just shut the fuck up and realize the beauty that is you are living on your own.
sure, it's not purely alone - you're on a meal plan and you're paying big bucks and you're required to go to class - but holy shit it's so much better than being stuck in a house, getting nagged at all the time, having make plans to go to friend's houses because they live 10/15 minutes away BECAUSE NOW the kids you know and love are literally yards away, everything is walking distance, and you can relax and not stress out. I WANT THAT BACK
SO
BAD.
hooooly shit i will never be able to move back in with my folks after i graduate seriously lmfao. I don't remember wanting to get out of this damn house so bad at the end of last summer, but this summer i'm so so so done.
I think it's because I'm noticing a lot more tension between my parents than ever before.
At dinner tonight, my mom knocked over a wine glass and the wine spilled everywhere and got on my brother and made this big ol mess. My dad got all pissed and my mom just tried to laugh it off, but that tension just kept up through dinner. My mom had broken a wine glass friday night, so my dad was like "what is wrong with you" lmfao. & At one point my mom started cutting up half of the pizza differently than the first half (we had homemade pizza it was so good) and my dad was like "are you retarded?" and i was just like
...
seriously??
Growing up, yeah my parents argued. But this past year or so I've noticed it's been getting worse. My mom tries to keep laughing things off and cracking jokes, but my dad takes it more seriously and seems to be more on the edge&pissy. I just can't take it. They were never, ever this bad. I don't know if it's because me and my brother aren't around as much anymore and they can be obnoxious or what but it's really fucking strange. I'm legit worried that in a few years their marriage is going to fall apart, unless my dad calms the fuck down and my mom gets a grip.
*breathes* i'm totally ranting but... i just needed to get it out of my system.
IN BETTER NEWS; My uncle raffi&aunt laura were over saturday and we got to hang out with them all day. i love them so much, they're the coolest aunt&uncle anyone could ask for. i want to be like them when i'm older. hopefully with the arcanomicon, the arcade machine my uncle built with a computer inside that has roughly 2000 games on it. awww yeah.
I'm so fucking done with being home. I want to move out to Amsterdam so badly. I want to see Bryn Mawr and my friends again too, but that can wait until January. Moving out has to happen now.
I'm so jealous of my friends who are moving back in this week. You guys who don't live away from home don't get this but living away from your parents... it's totally amazing. You can get up when you want, no one nags you about anything, you just do what you decide you have to do. Everyone I know whose going away to college (like my cousins/friends/brother) are all worried like "blah blah blah what if the school work is so hard or so much" or "baaaawwwww i'm not going to make any friends" i'm like dude.
just shut the fuck up and realize the beauty that is you are living on your own.
sure, it's not purely alone - you're on a meal plan and you're paying big bucks and you're required to go to class - but holy shit it's so much better than being stuck in a house, getting nagged at all the time, having make plans to go to friend's houses because they live 10/15 minutes away BECAUSE NOW the kids you know and love are literally yards away, everything is walking distance, and you can relax and not stress out. I WANT THAT BACK
SO
BAD.
hooooly shit i will never be able to move back in with my folks after i graduate seriously lmfao. I don't remember wanting to get out of this damn house so bad at the end of last summer, but this summer i'm so so so done.
I think it's because I'm noticing a lot more tension between my parents than ever before.
At dinner tonight, my mom knocked over a wine glass and the wine spilled everywhere and got on my brother and made this big ol mess. My dad got all pissed and my mom just tried to laugh it off, but that tension just kept up through dinner. My mom had broken a wine glass friday night, so my dad was like "what is wrong with you" lmfao. & At one point my mom started cutting up half of the pizza differently than the first half (we had homemade pizza it was so good) and my dad was like "are you retarded?" and i was just like
...
seriously??
Growing up, yeah my parents argued. But this past year or so I've noticed it's been getting worse. My mom tries to keep laughing things off and cracking jokes, but my dad takes it more seriously and seems to be more on the edge&pissy. I just can't take it. They were never, ever this bad. I don't know if it's because me and my brother aren't around as much anymore and they can be obnoxious or what but it's really fucking strange. I'm legit worried that in a few years their marriage is going to fall apart, unless my dad calms the fuck down and my mom gets a grip.
*breathes* i'm totally ranting but... i just needed to get it out of my system.
IN BETTER NEWS; My uncle raffi&aunt laura were over saturday and we got to hang out with them all day. i love them so much, they're the coolest aunt&uncle anyone could ask for. i want to be like them when i'm older. hopefully with the arcanomicon, the arcade machine my uncle built with a computer inside that has roughly 2000 games on it. awww yeah.