A Decision
I've received a e-mail from my mom since the one that I've posted here. It's a nice conversational e-mail that is almost the complete opposite of what she sent me before. I don't understand why it's so sunshiny as the last time I talked to her, the conversation ended rather darkly because I told her I wouldn't be able to make it to my cousin's wedding a week after hers and she adamantly thinks that we should go, never mind we don't have the money to go (spent it on airplane tickets for her wedding) and we also don't have the time to go. So I told her just to forward the invite on to us and "we'll think on it." Now she's written me an e-mail since I haven't responded to her last two asking if I got a new e-mail address or have just cut her completely out of my life. I don't know what to say without sounding very upset for no reason in her eyes (maybe because I AM upset and, to me, with very good reason). I have no one here other than Nathan to hash this out with and he's been oh so not very helpful. I really need a friend here in Utah. I read my favorites list more than once a day and it hurts me so much that everyone is having such a good time without me. That's life, and I love all of you. I've been thinking about it for a while and I think I'm going to try to stop writing in here for everyone else so that I'll be able to focus more of my time and efforts in finding some friends here. From now on, entries will be made privately.