slumber time is over, wake up
i haven't been doing much of anything besides eating, sleeping, and working. so the cycle repeats itself day after day. i'm in an office all day. i stare at a screen, i have a phone attached to my ear, and my fingers are stuck to the keyboard. i feel like a machine. except machines can't become blind, deaf, or develop carpel tunnel syndrome. they just get fixed. and when i come home, i have no energy or motivation. am i sick? all i want to do is sleep in for hours and dream because life is very uninspiring to me right now. when things like this happen, i feel sad for humanity.
this is not the way i want to end the year. i need to move or take a trip somewhere, anywhere. make music..meet people..find interest in things again. i need to get started on my school applications, this work is really depressing. i don't have much time left.