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i'm happy for the first time in awhile. even though the summer has disappeared and i'm too stubborn to revert back to sweaters for these two days of blackberry or dogwood or redbud winter. my mom asks me if i'm wearing socks on the phone and i wiggle my toes and say yes. my feet have never liked wearing socks. i've been skipping classes and burning gas and being too rowdy for my own good. i stayed up late last night listening to boys play banjo and guitar and hand drums. i don't know if i'm confused or what. maybe my head's still a little dizzy from spinning into that wall the other night. you never can tell. but i'm not weary and i'm not scared. my arms are pretty open and my heart's thumping, even though my voice usually can't find a place in the air to settle when you're around. what am i doing? i'm not feeling meek.
and i feel like going out of the way and dropping my friends off at the door in the pouring rain even if i have to park the car two miles away and telling an enraged man in kfc who's yelling at his tiny little kids and jerking them by their arms to go fuck himself and giving the mexican man named salzar that my church adopted money even though i know he's going to spend it on drugs and i'm okay with that if drugs make him happy.
because i just want everyone to be happy.
you were talking about how people always pride themselves in not doing things. not drinking and not cheating on their wives and not smoking pot and not cursing. and people don't DO anything.
world, you are the null hypothesis.
i made my own page of postsecrets.
i'm curious about what every day will bring.
and i feel like going out of the way and dropping my friends off at the door in the pouring rain even if i have to park the car two miles away and telling an enraged man in kfc who's yelling at his tiny little kids and jerking them by their arms to go fuck himself and giving the mexican man named salzar that my church adopted money even though i know he's going to spend it on drugs and i'm okay with that if drugs make him happy.
because i just want everyone to be happy.
you were talking about how people always pride themselves in not doing things. not drinking and not cheating on their wives and not smoking pot and not cursing. and people don't DO anything.
world, you are the null hypothesis.
i made my own page of postsecrets.
i'm curious about what every day will bring.