its odd....
to be back
After such a long time, to be back.
But I am, and I would just like to say
I'm happy. I am.
I have my ups
I have my downs
But they don't exist unless they are together
so I get down
But I am happy.
Freshers week. The best of my life. Because I met the love of my life there.
Did I know, then, what she was? No. Did I realise even afterwards? No. When did I? Last month. About exactly to be honest. And I'm glad I did. She makes me happy to be alive. She makes me see what I need to do to be happy. She makes me confident. She makes me strong. She makes me independant. She makes me so many things I thought I'd never be again.
Words can't explain. Its best they don't really. Because its a feeling that when i'm with her, I experience. Its the moment when I see her, and even my other friends, and everyone. Its that exact moment, where I see that life is ok, life is good, life is worth it
And I have something to give. I think I can really do this. I think I really can.
Drink free for one year 5 months (6th August 2007)
Self harm free for almost 8 months (20th May 2008)
take it one day at a time
and it works
It did for me this time. I've thought of it. Don't get me wrong. But I think of her. And it goes away
and I think of chris
and i think of spudnik
and stephy
heather
metal
dee
susannah
fi
julie
simone
sarah
jamie
everyone
and it goes away
I never thought I'd be this happy again
After such a long time, to be back.
But I am, and I would just like to say
I'm happy. I am.
I have my ups
I have my downs
But they don't exist unless they are together
so I get down
But I am happy.
Freshers week. The best of my life. Because I met the love of my life there.
Did I know, then, what she was? No. Did I realise even afterwards? No. When did I? Last month. About exactly to be honest. And I'm glad I did. She makes me happy to be alive. She makes me see what I need to do to be happy. She makes me confident. She makes me strong. She makes me independant. She makes me so many things I thought I'd never be again.
Words can't explain. Its best they don't really. Because its a feeling that when i'm with her, I experience. Its the moment when I see her, and even my other friends, and everyone. Its that exact moment, where I see that life is ok, life is good, life is worth it
And I have something to give. I think I can really do this. I think I really can.
Drink free for one year 5 months (6th August 2007)
Self harm free for almost 8 months (20th May 2008)
take it one day at a time
and it works
It did for me this time. I've thought of it. Don't get me wrong. But I think of her. And it goes away
and I think of chris
and i think of spudnik
and stephy
heather
metal
dee
susannah
fi
julie
simone
sarah
jamie
everyone
and it goes away
I never thought I'd be this happy again