Me again
Umm, hello. Another update from me. Fingers crossed I might actually get round to posting this one (unlike the previous 3 which all ended up getting scrapped).
So what’s going on? Well, in between the moving house, funeral, work stress, church stress and life in general, there’s been writer’s block, meetings, annoying plot bunnies, emotional crashes and more writer’s block. It’s been a far from easy few months for me and every time I think it might be easing off, something else happens. What I really want is for the world to stop for a week so I can catch up, but apparently science doesn’t work that way. Getting to bed before midnight might also be good.
So, what now? Well, I have a RL to-do list as long as my arm and a fandom to-do list just as long. I still have writer’s block to some extent, which isn’t helping my mental state and vice versa. My brain is refusing to settle, which considering my attention deficit disorder (inattentiveness version) and my current emotional state (slightly off balance which is unsettling for someone who isn’t used to dealing with emotions) isn’t too surprising, but also isn’t very conducive for getting the next part of Doubles done. I have been doing some writing but rarely on the same thing for a decent length of time. I’ve tried limiting what I’m flittering between but I also know from experience that it’s not worth fighting my brain too much and if I don’t go with what it’s currently fixated on then I lose it. Despite my best efforts though, Doubles is the one my brain really isn’t cooperating with, partly I suspect because it should have been finished long before now and because it caused my writer’s block in the first place.
Anyway, my crazy brain aside, what is my plan for the future?
Well, this is some of my fandom to-do list in rough order, which should help to answer some of the questions I’m being asked and what my priorities are.
1) Finish “Doubles” - obviously top of my list but easier said than done. I will guarantee though that the next fic I post will be the next “Doubles” chapter, but at the moment even the mere thought of looking at it again is making me want to cry. Sorry.
2) Re-edit Winning and Doubles - don’t ask. It’s just corrections and tinkering, you shouldn’t notice too much. It’s just going to take time.
3) Werewolf sequel “Only Human” - this is where I’m going after “Doubles” and my next major priority. It’s currently 34k words long, but isn’t all in order and conversations need to be had with my beta and scenes written before I can even think about how and when the first part might see the light of day.
4) Sort out some of the many pieces of paper I have with story notes or scenes on them. I have a ridiculous number and they’re everywhere. Sorting them should help sort out my brain as well.
5) Figure out where to go next. I have so many stories that I want to write that it’s just ridiculous. The tennis!verse has so many more stories in it. I’ve cut my non-tennis, non-werewolf plot bunnies down to five that I’m desperate to write and three that I really want to write and that’s just full ideas with story outlines, etc, not just vague ideas. My brain feels like it wants to explode. So many ideas, so little time. And the more ideas I get and the more stressed I get, the more my thought processes fracture and go in multiple directions, and I really, really need to concentrate on one thing.
Anyway, sorry, you might have figured that I’m rather stressed, distracted, frustrated, crazy and emotional at the moment. Oh, and look, Christmas is coming! Deep joy! Sorry. I’m just going to disappear again now.
But before I do, thank you all for your lovely comments in the past few weeks. They do/have helped, even if I don’t get to respond. I am around, it’s just sometimes I’m more with it than at other times. My brain tonight is not with it, so sorry if I sound as if I’m about to have a breakdown or something, I’m just not quite myself. I will be though, hopefully soon, and normal service will resume.
Thanks all,
Jupiter
So what’s going on? Well, in between the moving house, funeral, work stress, church stress and life in general, there’s been writer’s block, meetings, annoying plot bunnies, emotional crashes and more writer’s block. It’s been a far from easy few months for me and every time I think it might be easing off, something else happens. What I really want is for the world to stop for a week so I can catch up, but apparently science doesn’t work that way. Getting to bed before midnight might also be good.
So, what now? Well, I have a RL to-do list as long as my arm and a fandom to-do list just as long. I still have writer’s block to some extent, which isn’t helping my mental state and vice versa. My brain is refusing to settle, which considering my attention deficit disorder (inattentiveness version) and my current emotional state (slightly off balance which is unsettling for someone who isn’t used to dealing with emotions) isn’t too surprising, but also isn’t very conducive for getting the next part of Doubles done. I have been doing some writing but rarely on the same thing for a decent length of time. I’ve tried limiting what I’m flittering between but I also know from experience that it’s not worth fighting my brain too much and if I don’t go with what it’s currently fixated on then I lose it. Despite my best efforts though, Doubles is the one my brain really isn’t cooperating with, partly I suspect because it should have been finished long before now and because it caused my writer’s block in the first place.
Anyway, my crazy brain aside, what is my plan for the future?
Well, this is some of my fandom to-do list in rough order, which should help to answer some of the questions I’m being asked and what my priorities are.
1) Finish “Doubles” - obviously top of my list but easier said than done. I will guarantee though that the next fic I post will be the next “Doubles” chapter, but at the moment even the mere thought of looking at it again is making me want to cry. Sorry.
2) Re-edit Winning and Doubles - don’t ask. It’s just corrections and tinkering, you shouldn’t notice too much. It’s just going to take time.
3) Werewolf sequel “Only Human” - this is where I’m going after “Doubles” and my next major priority. It’s currently 34k words long, but isn’t all in order and conversations need to be had with my beta and scenes written before I can even think about how and when the first part might see the light of day.
4) Sort out some of the many pieces of paper I have with story notes or scenes on them. I have a ridiculous number and they’re everywhere. Sorting them should help sort out my brain as well.
5) Figure out where to go next. I have so many stories that I want to write that it’s just ridiculous. The tennis!verse has so many more stories in it. I’ve cut my non-tennis, non-werewolf plot bunnies down to five that I’m desperate to write and three that I really want to write and that’s just full ideas with story outlines, etc, not just vague ideas. My brain feels like it wants to explode. So many ideas, so little time. And the more ideas I get and the more stressed I get, the more my thought processes fracture and go in multiple directions, and I really, really need to concentrate on one thing.
Anyway, sorry, you might have figured that I’m rather stressed, distracted, frustrated, crazy and emotional at the moment. Oh, and look, Christmas is coming! Deep joy! Sorry. I’m just going to disappear again now.
But before I do, thank you all for your lovely comments in the past few weeks. They do/have helped, even if I don’t get to respond. I am around, it’s just sometimes I’m more with it than at other times. My brain tonight is not with it, so sorry if I sound as if I’m about to have a breakdown or something, I’m just not quite myself. I will be though, hopefully soon, and normal service will resume.
Thanks all,
Jupiter