Transition
"Ang cool mo."
You know, I kind of forgot that I was. But then again, I never really considered myself in that terms. So as tradition dictates, by the end of a year, I look back what has gone past so I can remember what I should be thankful for and what I've learned. 2010 was going to be my year and you know, it was. Except at some point, admittedly, I lost my way. I got discouraged, confused, and too caught up in a world that very few people can give me guidance. But let's start from the beginning.
The entry of 2010 meant an entry into a new life, a life I thought was elusive to me. Honestly, as much as I know I wanted it, I wasn't prepared for what it entailed. Its taking me a long time to adjust, truth be told. I've been so wired to think a certain way and conditioned for a year and a half to follow certain rules and always be sure of your answers and then to go to a career that was filled with uncertainty, that although entrenched with an element of rationality does not guarantee results, its quite baffling for me. And in some ways, it discouraged me. It was an internal struggle, one that I am still learning to adjust to. But the lessons learned in 2010 can only form a better me in 2011. So a rejuvination of the determination to do this, against all odds, is nesceessary. I can and I will be better. That means a purging of bad habits and the adoption of the desire to change. Starting with my faith. I admit that I have lost my way in that too and without God at the center of my life, I feel like a lost lamb. So I am going to find ways to put him at the forefront again.
And yet, no matter how lackluster this year has been compared to what I thought it would be, nothing could take away the feeling of knowing I made the right decision. There is no regret in my heart and there will never be. There was a lot of fun had and a lot of things to adjust to. Along with the defeats came the success. And can you believe we've managed to release the '08 yearbook already? I know for most you'd think it was about time, but working on it for as long as we have held not only some sort of relief, but also pride. And yes, I am very proud of that accomplishment and that team of friends more than colleagues.
The year would also have been increasingly difficult without people around me. Old friends, new friends, and rediscovered friends, have been the greatest source of strength. Denise Ledesma, Pam Enriquez, Pat Hernandez, Alexis Gaudinez, Camille Cua, Cathy Sy, Ringo Ferrer and Karlvin Ong have been great stress relievers for constantly listening to my rants and sharing good advice at a much needed time. Melissa Pazcoguin, Maxi Fernandex, Justin Fernandez, Nina Dionisio and Vanessa Tan for constantly seeking and finding ways to make me smile. For Gisa Paredes, Cris Alcaraz and Jaydee Chun for being such amazing all around sources of strength. We did good guys, as well as the rest of the team. For Mae Labuac, Coy Cueto and Lianne Salvador who I've known far longer than anybody and are still one of the best people I know. For the law school people who still welcome me with open arms, show up when I schedule lunch and who I miss seeing everyday terribly and who never fails to make me laugh so hard, to Candice See, Joni Gomez, Aldous Camiso, Kae Guerrero, Rai Bantol, Ros Nonato, CK Guinto, et. al. You guys are amazing and possibly one of the best things that came out of my experience in UP. And to my mentors, whether teachers, bosses, or colleagues, I appreciate the patience, understanding and the opportunity to be where I am.
So I took that first step in November 2009, and I just passed the entryway in 2010. The path is long and winding but its still the one I would chose.
Happy New Year everyone!
You know, I kind of forgot that I was. But then again, I never really considered myself in that terms. So as tradition dictates, by the end of a year, I look back what has gone past so I can remember what I should be thankful for and what I've learned. 2010 was going to be my year and you know, it was. Except at some point, admittedly, I lost my way. I got discouraged, confused, and too caught up in a world that very few people can give me guidance. But let's start from the beginning.
The entry of 2010 meant an entry into a new life, a life I thought was elusive to me. Honestly, as much as I know I wanted it, I wasn't prepared for what it entailed. Its taking me a long time to adjust, truth be told. I've been so wired to think a certain way and conditioned for a year and a half to follow certain rules and always be sure of your answers and then to go to a career that was filled with uncertainty, that although entrenched with an element of rationality does not guarantee results, its quite baffling for me. And in some ways, it discouraged me. It was an internal struggle, one that I am still learning to adjust to. But the lessons learned in 2010 can only form a better me in 2011. So a rejuvination of the determination to do this, against all odds, is nesceessary. I can and I will be better. That means a purging of bad habits and the adoption of the desire to change. Starting with my faith. I admit that I have lost my way in that too and without God at the center of my life, I feel like a lost lamb. So I am going to find ways to put him at the forefront again.
And yet, no matter how lackluster this year has been compared to what I thought it would be, nothing could take away the feeling of knowing I made the right decision. There is no regret in my heart and there will never be. There was a lot of fun had and a lot of things to adjust to. Along with the defeats came the success. And can you believe we've managed to release the '08 yearbook already? I know for most you'd think it was about time, but working on it for as long as we have held not only some sort of relief, but also pride. And yes, I am very proud of that accomplishment and that team of friends more than colleagues.
The year would also have been increasingly difficult without people around me. Old friends, new friends, and rediscovered friends, have been the greatest source of strength. Denise Ledesma, Pam Enriquez, Pat Hernandez, Alexis Gaudinez, Camille Cua, Cathy Sy, Ringo Ferrer and Karlvin Ong have been great stress relievers for constantly listening to my rants and sharing good advice at a much needed time. Melissa Pazcoguin, Maxi Fernandex, Justin Fernandez, Nina Dionisio and Vanessa Tan for constantly seeking and finding ways to make me smile. For Gisa Paredes, Cris Alcaraz and Jaydee Chun for being such amazing all around sources of strength. We did good guys, as well as the rest of the team. For Mae Labuac, Coy Cueto and Lianne Salvador who I've known far longer than anybody and are still one of the best people I know. For the law school people who still welcome me with open arms, show up when I schedule lunch and who I miss seeing everyday terribly and who never fails to make me laugh so hard, to Candice See, Joni Gomez, Aldous Camiso, Kae Guerrero, Rai Bantol, Ros Nonato, CK Guinto, et. al. You guys are amazing and possibly one of the best things that came out of my experience in UP. And to my mentors, whether teachers, bosses, or colleagues, I appreciate the patience, understanding and the opportunity to be where I am.
So I took that first step in November 2009, and I just passed the entryway in 2010. The path is long and winding but its still the one I would chose.
Happy New Year everyone!