Thoughts on my life
I have been thinking a lot about my life. Lots has happened in the last while, some of it great and some of it completely against how I would have liked it. At the moment I keep ending at the same thought, I really don't have something reasonable to work towards. For years I have wanted to move to Germany and find out what it was like to live there. It was a goal I always had in my head throughout undergrad and now that I have accomplished it I don't really have anything like that to work towards. Although not everything I did over the years was towards moving to Germany, I always had this big goal in my head. At the moment I feel like I am lacking this big goal to work towards. Completing my PhD, getting my next belt in TKD, etc... all just seem like small goals, and goals that are not as important as my goal to move to Germany. I am trying to find a reasonable goal, something I really truly want, something bigger... All the goals I come up with are not really reasonable to be able to work towards. Even though I am feeling quite good about things in my life, I feel lost. I kind of feel like I am living life without a real (reasonable) focus. I think I need something that is just for myself, moving to Germany was just for myself something I could do on my own.