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it doesn't help much that im unhappy in this apartment.. where im constantly reminded of acts of violence and manipulation. and I cant get away from it..
must first step away from it.. and view it from the past. can not do this when im flat consistently in the center. can not even make it past.
since January I have wanted to leave this apartment.. only before I gathered my wits, lying and deceiving and more emotional crap involved so I couldn't be well enough to gather my strength to move out. mainly I did not know anyone to move in with or needing roommates. and my state.. left me unable to do the social rounds at the time. things got uglier.. and I fell deeper into this abyss.
must first step away from it.. and view it from the past. can not do this when im flat consistently in the center. can not even make it past.
since January I have wanted to leave this apartment.. only before I gathered my wits, lying and deceiving and more emotional crap involved so I couldn't be well enough to gather my strength to move out. mainly I did not know anyone to move in with or needing roommates. and my state.. left me unable to do the social rounds at the time. things got uglier.. and I fell deeper into this abyss.