omg
i never thought that my life would end up being so full of shit. i don't know what to do anymore. between mark, manda, and megan, i am know very worried about james. i mean i know he will be ok, but i still just wish there was something that i could do. i feel so bad for him. it hurts knowing that he's in so much pain. i cried myself to sleep last night because of him. i love him so much and yet there is nothing i can do. i hate feeling helpless. it sux. i don't know what i am gonna do. why does florida have to be so freaking far away? i hate it! but anyways...i gotta get goin. i love ya james and i am always thinkin about ya and prayin for ya.