Aug 18, 2003 23:21
where is god?
where is good?
and where is man?
i don't know where god is. i don't know if there is a god, though the wife believes there is. if there is a god, i don't much care. everything i've forgotten about god shows that we're on our own anyway. some say he answers prayers, that he will listen when we call. i never call. i don't know where the phone is.
there doesn't need to be a god in this world for good to exist. in the end it's just you and me and what good there is is going to have to come from the both of us. no god, no laws, no commandments will save us. in the end it's just us and judging by the shape of the world these days, you and me aren't doing to good. usually i'm a hopeful cynic. tonight... i don't have much hope. we're living on borrowed time, we pissed away so much, this ship is is sunk. it just doesnt' know it yet.and it's not even bad where i am. in many ways i don't care. lets get to the destruction over with and call it a day. the small things, those bits of life, a smile, a kind word, all that doesn't seem enough to demolish the bricks of everyday evil. i don't want to work hard as hell for money, to play nice with people i don't like because it's part of the job, i don' t want to deal with nitwits because it's part of my job. i just want to do something well and have it matter within the larger context of the world.
i can't remember what good i've done at the moment.