Im going through changes
People look back on my past two years and are proud. I have become a different person.. and what people dont realize is im worse. Live journals are made for people like you and I to express our issues and look for pity and forgiveness, but i will tell you right now i dont want your fucking pity and your stupid fucking forgiveness. I dont know what i want... life seemed so clear untill i clouded it. I cant remember anything anymore... maybe its better that way, drown myself in sorrow. And as i pollute my mind with awful images of drug addiction from the past i think... hey claire you just hit a dip in the road and now you are the most pathetic person i have ever met. So before i lay back down in my bed i want you to know... i have given up. You win