[chaptered] Angel Devil 3/6
Title: Angel Devil [3/6]
Author:
ambrosse
Pairing: Sakumiya, Ohmiya
Rating: NC-17
Length: Chaptered
Genre: Angst (a lot), drama, AU, romance
Disclaimer: I don’t own anyone but me :D
Summary: Nino struggles to keep himself alive and sort through his emotions regarding infidelity.
a/n: So it's been decided! This series is going to be six chapters long. Thank you to everyone who has supported my work thus far :)
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Chapter 1[NC-17]| Chapter 2
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They touch their noses together, lying in Ohno’s small and well-worn futon at his apartment. Nino blushes and keeps his gaze locked with Ohno’s. Ohno smiles warmly.
“Your nose is cold,” Ohno says. Nino sighs lightly with a small smile.
“It’s always cold,” he says softly.
Ohno pulls away and comes back with a gentle kiss on the tip of Nino’s nose, a hand resting lightly against Nino’s cheek and neck. Nino closes his eyes and continues to smile.
“We’ve been together for a couple weeks now…” Ohno says giving Nino a peck on the lips.
“Mmm, so?” Nino says. Ohno hesitates and blushes, but kisses Nino once more.
“Don’t you think it’s about time…?” Ohno replies. Nino is confused.
“What do you mean?”
“Well…you know…we really like each other and stuff…so…”
Nino pushes Ohno away playfully and chuckles, “You want sex?”
Ohno’s blush gets rosier, “Ah…well,” he starts, “well, yeah!” He tries to assert himself as manly. Nino chuckles once more.
“You can be so awkward,” Nino says cuddling back against Ohno’s body. He kisses Ohno’s cheek. “I don’t mind,” Nino says. He wraps his arms around Ohno’s neck and presses their lips together. Ohno slides his hands along Nino’s back.
“You sure?” Ohno asks against Nino’s lips.
“I want you,” Nino replies. It’s as if Nino opened the floodgates. Ohno is immediately all over Nino’s body, giving him little kisses on his neck. Nino pulls back a bit and takes his shirt off to give Ohno more room to spoil him. Ohno takes the offer and kisses Nino sweetly along his collarbones and shoulders.
Skin already flushed and feeling Ohno hard, rubbing himself against his leg, Nino stops Ohno briefly again, “Ne, let me treat you too.” Ohno grins.
“Sounds good to me!” he chimes. Nino hits him playfully.
“Don’t make it sound like that…” Nino says pulling himself out from under Ohno’s weight.
Ohno strips himself and strokes him member, waiting for Nino to finish undressing himself. Without words, Nino takes Ohno’s member in his hand and licks slowly up the side to the tip. He suckles on the tip for a while before taking it into his mouth. Ohno moans low, resting a hand loosely on the back of Nino’s head. He enjoys surveying Nino’s naked body with his eyes, just as much as watching Nino suck him off.
Nino sucks Ohno hard because of Ohno pleasured reaction. “Ah, Ninomiya-san…” Ohno moans. Nino takes a quick break to catch his breath, “Call me Kazu.” He winks and Ohno chuckles.
Tension in Ohno’s body reaches its peak and he gently pushes Nino away, “Let’s save it for later, hm?” Nino nods, out of breath. Nino lies on his back and lets Ohno spoil him with kisses and touches again.
He grabs some lube from a nearby drawer and applies some to Nino’s entrance. Nino shivers.
“It’s cold,” he says in a daze.
“It’ll warm up soon,” Ohno replies, stretching Nino’s hole while stroking Nino’s neglected member. The younger writhes in pleasure.
"O-Oh-chan,” Nino says softly, “It’s been a while…”
“Don’t worry, I’ll go slow,” Ohno says rubbing lube on his member and positioning it again Nino’s entrance. He pushes in slowly earning a pained whimper from Nino. Ohno stops moving and leans over Nino’s body, kissing his neck, moving to his lips, “It’s okay, baby, just focus on us kissing.”
A small tear escapes, but Nino nods, doing as Ohno says. Ohno pushes one of Nino’s legs up to give him more room. Eventually, Ohno thrusts all the way in, earning another whimper from Nino, and he stills for a moment to let Nino relax.
Nino takes a deep breath and his body relaxes. His heart still races and flutters seeing Ohno towering over him.
Ohno comes back down to give Nino a deep, thoughtful kiss.
“Are you ready?” Ohno asks. Nino nods and winces when Ohno begins to move.
Ohno groans and moves fast almost immediately while holding Nino’s hips. Nino’s hands grip Ohno’s arms tightly, moaning happily once the pain subsides.
“Ah, Oh-chan~~” Nino moans cutely. He lets go of one of Ohno’s arms and strokes himself while Ohno quickens the pace, lost in his own reverie when hearing Nino moan his name.
Nino comes shortly after on his stomach, moaning loudly, almost squirming underneath Ohno. Excited by such a scene, Ohno comes shortly after. He pulls out and lies next to Nino, their sweaty, sticky bodies gluing themselves together.
“I hope you don’t mind, I couldn’t get out in time,” Ohno says, embarrassed, blushing.
Nino looks exhausted, but pleased, “It’s okay, Oh-chan,” he says turning his head and kissing Ohno’s lips gently, “I don’t mind.”
There is a moment of silence, and Ohno breaks it. “Was it good?” he asks.
Nino gives Ohno a tired smile, his eyes half closed, “It was excellent.” Nino rolls onto his side and wraps his arms around Ohno’s neck, kissing him tiredly.
“You know…I actually have a boyfriend,” Nino says.
Caught off guard but not caring, Ohno kisses Nino’s forehead. “I don’t give a damn.”
The next morning, Ohno is dressed and painting something. Nino is woken up by his phone ringing. Ohno looks over in Nino’s direction, “Your phone is ringing.”
Nino groans, his body naked and aching, “I know, I know…” He answers without looking.
“Hello?” he says tiredly, still groggy.
“Kazu, where are you?” Sho says, worried. Nino realizes that Sho must have come home early in the morning.
Ohno watches Nino take the call.
“Ah…I stayed at a friend’s house. I watched a scary movie and I didn’t want to be alone…” he lies.
“Oh…well at least leave me a note next time. I was worried,” Sho replies.
“Sorry,” Nino says.
“Just come home soon, okay?” Sho says.
“I’ll be home in a few hours. I need to eat and stuff,” Nino says rubbing his eyes.
“Okay. Stay safe. I love you, bye,” Sho replies.
“You too, bye,” Nino says hanging up, his head falling back into Ohno’s one and only pillow.
Ohno continues painting when Nino looks at him from the bed, “That was him, right? Your boyfriend?”
“Yeah.”
“Ah…well I’m painting a picture of you,” Ohno says, changing the subject.
“What of? I hope it’s not my ass,” Nino giggles.
“Your sleeping face. It’s cute,” Ohno says.
Nino blushes. “Okay, well I guess that’s fine.” Nino stretches and curls up again. “So we did it, huh? Right on your dirty futon.”
“It’s not that dirty,” Ohno says, “It’s just been well loved.”
Nino giggles again and gets up. “I’m gonna go wipe myself off and then I’ll head out, okay?”
Ohno nods and continues painting.
So you’re cheating physically and emotionally now, and you don’t feel the slightest bit guilty?
No, I needed this. I haven’t felt this happy in a long time.
Then break things off with Sho.
I can’t…I love him.
You love him, but you cheat?
Nino cleans and dresses himself and then wanders out to say goodbye to Ohno.
“I’m leaving now, Oh-chan.”
Ohno rises from his seat and hugs Nino tightly, “I’ll text you, okay? We’ll get together another time.”
Nino hugs him back just as tight, “Of course.” He smiles cutely and kisses Ohno before taking his leave.
The apartment is quiet when Nino returns home. Sho is not anywhere in sight, and all the lights were shut off. No one is home.
Nino sighs and goes to the bedroom and sits on the edge of the bed. He stares at the floor, almost sad that Sho said he’d be home, but he was no longer.
“I’ll take a bath,” he says to himself.
He plugs the tub and turns the faucet, filling it with warm water. He adds some bath salts and strips. Wondering where Sho went off to, he quickly grabs his phone naked, and then rushes back to the warm bathroom. He gets in the bath with his phone and texts Sho.
[Kazu]: Where are you? I just got home. I didn’t even eat anything yet.
After five minutes, Sho replies.
[Sho <3]: I got called back in to work. Sorry, babe. There is some leftover chicken in the fridge if you want to eat that for lunch.
[Kazu]: Okay…I’ll see you later then?
[Sho <3]: Of course, baby.
Nino sets his phone on the ledge of the bathtub and soaks in the warm water up to his chin. He thinks about his sexy night with Ohno and his heart flutters. He thinks about Ohno for almost 20 minutes straight.
“I’m really falling for that guy…” he says to himself, “But I still love Sho-chan…he takes care of me…”
You don’t love Sho-chan, you love that old man. Not to mention Sho-chan leaves you by yourself a lot, cancels plans with you, leaves you in the dust when the old man will always meet with you and pleasure you.
“I believe they both care for me…” he says again, out loud to himself.
You know, instead of battling yourself, you could drown in this tub, right here, right now. Done. Gone. You won’t have to worry about upsetting anyone, rejecting anyone. Escape your problems. Just do it here.
“Doesn’t it hurt? It seems scary…” his voice echoes against the tiled bathroom walls.
Not at all! Just a few minutes of your time, to end time. I t would be scarier to get hit by a car. Give it a try.
Nino gives in.
He takes a deep breath and scoots his butt forward in the tub so his head would go under water easier. Slowly he lowers his head in, until he takes in one last breath and dips under.
Water fills his ears so he can only hear his heart beating. His eyes are close so everything is black, but he is surrounded by warmth.
He holds his breath for 30 seconds. He feels his body screaming for oxygen, but he denies it that right.
Another 30 seconds pass. Time seems to slow down, the seconds growing drastically longer as the counting in his head grows foggy, his body trying to focus his attention on the need for oxygen; he ignores it.
A minute and a half goes by; he holds his body down in the tub, his hand knocking his phone to the floor.
Two minutes and he blacks out, his lungs forcefully taking in water, choking him without his knowing.
Two minutes and five seconds and Sho finds him in the tub. He pulls Nino’s body from the water and calls to him, but there is no response. He tries rescue breathing and CPR. To his luck, Nino’s unconscious body expels the water and he wakes up coughing, confused, and weak.
“Kazunari! Baby! Are you okay?” Sho says worried, almost crying.
Nino’s vision is blurry, but he manages to respond, “I’m sorry…” He coughs hard.
“What happened?” Sho demands, hugging Nino’s small, wet body.
“I…fell asleep in the tub,” he says weakly, “I’m sorry, Sho-chan…” He cough heavily some more.
Sho scoops him up and takes him to the bedroom, “Come on, let’s take you to see a doctor.”
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My name is Ninomiya Kazunari, and I hate myself. I tried to drown myself to just get things over with. I wouldn’t have to deal with loving both Sho-chan and Oh-chan, and I wouldn’t have to seek help. I don’t want help.
I slept with Oh-chan. I wanted to. We don’t even know each other well. When I want to get intimate with Sho-chan, he pushes me away, says he’s tired or he just doesn’t feel like it. We hadn’t had sex in over two months, so I stopped asking.
I wish I could say, “Have sex with me. Don’t you think I’m attractive?” but I’m afraid of what his answer would be.
I’m fine on the outside, but I know I’m depressed badly on the inside. I don’t want help from anyone. They’d look down on me.
I am Ninomiya Kazunari, and I have decided to kill myself.
I’m glad you’ve finally decided.
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“Hey, Kazu, what about this one?” Sho says, holding up a blue tie to his neck, “Classy?”
Nino seems distracted but answers, “Ah, hmm…I like the red one better.” Sho grabs the red one and exchanges it. He waits for Nino’s approval. In turn, Nino just gives him a hollow smile and a thumbs up.
Sho wanders around and Nino follows him lazily. “You can look for yourself too, Kazu,” Sho says turning to him.
“Naw, it’s okay. I have enough clothes,” Nino replies with a sigh.
“Don’t you need a new sweater? It’s getting colder out,” Sho asks.
“Naw, it’s fine. I have enough sweaters…”
Sho frowns a bit but shrugs it off. They spend the rest of their evening combing through clothes racks in the mall. Sho is around more because he now takes more time off to spend with Nino.
Nino’s phone vibrates; he has a text. He opens his phone and sees that the message is from Ohno. He giggles and smiles, his whole mood shifting. Sho notices.
[Old man]: Hey, I miss you ;)
Nino replies immediately with a big grin.
[Kazu]: I miss you too, Oh-chan :3 Dinner last time was fun. I’ll pay next time, I promise.
[Old man]: I don’t mind paying for your dinner. When can I see you next?
Nino wanders off while texting on his phone and Sho follows him.
[Kazu]: I don’t work tomorrow; we can meet up if you want.
[Old man]: I have a dentist appointment in the morning, but I can meet you afterward.
Right as Nino begins typing his return message, Sho snatches the phone from his hand, “Who are you talking to?” He starts reading the most recent message.
“Who’s ‘Old man’?” he asks.
Nino rips the phone back from Sho and closes it, “He’s a friend from work! We hang out a lot. He looks like an old man, so I call him an old man,” Nino replies.
“Ah, well tell him goodbye, we’re busy,” Sho says.
“Sorry…” Nino says, opening his phone and replying to Ohno.
[Kazu]: Sounds lovely. I’ll wait for you at lunch time at our park, okay? Love you.
[Old man]: Love you too, baby.
They arrive home and Sho is in a weird mood.
“Hey, we should make dinner together,” he says, digging through the fridge.
Nino is confused and shakes his head, “I’m too tired and lazy. I just want to watch TV. But you can make dinner!” His tone is playful and Sho enjoys it.
“Alright alright, I’ll make dinner, but I get a kiss later then, you’re stingy these days,” Sho says pulling out some onion and the leftover chicken.
Nino doesn’t answer and just watches TV. Sho earns his kiss from Nino and later on, Nino heads to bed early, tired from their day-long shopping trip. Sho, curious and suspicious about Nino’s attitude, communication and his secret phone messages, he sneaks into the bedroom and takes Nino’s phone off the dresser.
Nino, covered with blankets, hears Sho come in and mess with the buttons on his phone because they make a soft beeping noise. Knowing that there is no way he can stop Sho now, he just lies in bed unmoving, staring blankly at the corner of the nightstand next to the bed.
Sho enters Nino’s inbox and looks through the messages. They’re either from him, or from this “Old man” guy. He opens some up, and they’re general “what’s up” messages or “let’s meet up” messages, but as he scrolls back in time, they are more intimate. He reads such messages as “How much do you love my ass, Oh-chan?” Sho then reads the response, “Enough to make you scream next time.”
Shocked and disgusted, his heart racing and breaking, he reads Nino’s response back, “Ahn~ <3 I can’t wait for next time.”
He stares at the message sadly and shuts Nino’s phone, placing it in the exact place he found it. He stands at the dresser for another five minutes and then goes to the living room and doesn’t come back to sleep with Nino in the bed.
You’re such a slut, Kazunari. Just die already!
Author:
ambrosse
Pairing: Sakumiya, Ohmiya
Rating: NC-17
Length: Chaptered
Genre: Angst (a lot), drama, AU, romance
Disclaimer: I don’t own anyone but me :D
Summary: Nino struggles to keep himself alive and sort through his emotions regarding infidelity.
a/n: So it's been decided! This series is going to be six chapters long. Thank you to everyone who has supported my work thus far :)
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Chapter 1[NC-17]| Chapter 2
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They touch their noses together, lying in Ohno’s small and well-worn futon at his apartment. Nino blushes and keeps his gaze locked with Ohno’s. Ohno smiles warmly.
“Your nose is cold,” Ohno says. Nino sighs lightly with a small smile.
“It’s always cold,” he says softly.
Ohno pulls away and comes back with a gentle kiss on the tip of Nino’s nose, a hand resting lightly against Nino’s cheek and neck. Nino closes his eyes and continues to smile.
“We’ve been together for a couple weeks now…” Ohno says giving Nino a peck on the lips.
“Mmm, so?” Nino says. Ohno hesitates and blushes, but kisses Nino once more.
“Don’t you think it’s about time…?” Ohno replies. Nino is confused.
“What do you mean?”
“Well…you know…we really like each other and stuff…so…”
Nino pushes Ohno away playfully and chuckles, “You want sex?”
Ohno’s blush gets rosier, “Ah…well,” he starts, “well, yeah!” He tries to assert himself as manly. Nino chuckles once more.
“You can be so awkward,” Nino says cuddling back against Ohno’s body. He kisses Ohno’s cheek. “I don’t mind,” Nino says. He wraps his arms around Ohno’s neck and presses their lips together. Ohno slides his hands along Nino’s back.
“You sure?” Ohno asks against Nino’s lips.
“I want you,” Nino replies. It’s as if Nino opened the floodgates. Ohno is immediately all over Nino’s body, giving him little kisses on his neck. Nino pulls back a bit and takes his shirt off to give Ohno more room to spoil him. Ohno takes the offer and kisses Nino sweetly along his collarbones and shoulders.
Skin already flushed and feeling Ohno hard, rubbing himself against his leg, Nino stops Ohno briefly again, “Ne, let me treat you too.” Ohno grins.
“Sounds good to me!” he chimes. Nino hits him playfully.
“Don’t make it sound like that…” Nino says pulling himself out from under Ohno’s weight.
Ohno strips himself and strokes him member, waiting for Nino to finish undressing himself. Without words, Nino takes Ohno’s member in his hand and licks slowly up the side to the tip. He suckles on the tip for a while before taking it into his mouth. Ohno moans low, resting a hand loosely on the back of Nino’s head. He enjoys surveying Nino’s naked body with his eyes, just as much as watching Nino suck him off.
Nino sucks Ohno hard because of Ohno pleasured reaction. “Ah, Ninomiya-san…” Ohno moans. Nino takes a quick break to catch his breath, “Call me Kazu.” He winks and Ohno chuckles.
Tension in Ohno’s body reaches its peak and he gently pushes Nino away, “Let’s save it for later, hm?” Nino nods, out of breath. Nino lies on his back and lets Ohno spoil him with kisses and touches again.
He grabs some lube from a nearby drawer and applies some to Nino’s entrance. Nino shivers.
“It’s cold,” he says in a daze.
“It’ll warm up soon,” Ohno replies, stretching Nino’s hole while stroking Nino’s neglected member. The younger writhes in pleasure.
"O-Oh-chan,” Nino says softly, “It’s been a while…”
“Don’t worry, I’ll go slow,” Ohno says rubbing lube on his member and positioning it again Nino’s entrance. He pushes in slowly earning a pained whimper from Nino. Ohno stops moving and leans over Nino’s body, kissing his neck, moving to his lips, “It’s okay, baby, just focus on us kissing.”
A small tear escapes, but Nino nods, doing as Ohno says. Ohno pushes one of Nino’s legs up to give him more room. Eventually, Ohno thrusts all the way in, earning another whimper from Nino, and he stills for a moment to let Nino relax.
Nino takes a deep breath and his body relaxes. His heart still races and flutters seeing Ohno towering over him.
Ohno comes back down to give Nino a deep, thoughtful kiss.
“Are you ready?” Ohno asks. Nino nods and winces when Ohno begins to move.
Ohno groans and moves fast almost immediately while holding Nino’s hips. Nino’s hands grip Ohno’s arms tightly, moaning happily once the pain subsides.
“Ah, Oh-chan~~” Nino moans cutely. He lets go of one of Ohno’s arms and strokes himself while Ohno quickens the pace, lost in his own reverie when hearing Nino moan his name.
Nino comes shortly after on his stomach, moaning loudly, almost squirming underneath Ohno. Excited by such a scene, Ohno comes shortly after. He pulls out and lies next to Nino, their sweaty, sticky bodies gluing themselves together.
“I hope you don’t mind, I couldn’t get out in time,” Ohno says, embarrassed, blushing.
Nino looks exhausted, but pleased, “It’s okay, Oh-chan,” he says turning his head and kissing Ohno’s lips gently, “I don’t mind.”
There is a moment of silence, and Ohno breaks it. “Was it good?” he asks.
Nino gives Ohno a tired smile, his eyes half closed, “It was excellent.” Nino rolls onto his side and wraps his arms around Ohno’s neck, kissing him tiredly.
“You know…I actually have a boyfriend,” Nino says.
Caught off guard but not caring, Ohno kisses Nino’s forehead. “I don’t give a damn.”
The next morning, Ohno is dressed and painting something. Nino is woken up by his phone ringing. Ohno looks over in Nino’s direction, “Your phone is ringing.”
Nino groans, his body naked and aching, “I know, I know…” He answers without looking.
“Hello?” he says tiredly, still groggy.
“Kazu, where are you?” Sho says, worried. Nino realizes that Sho must have come home early in the morning.
Ohno watches Nino take the call.
“Ah…I stayed at a friend’s house. I watched a scary movie and I didn’t want to be alone…” he lies.
“Oh…well at least leave me a note next time. I was worried,” Sho replies.
“Sorry,” Nino says.
“Just come home soon, okay?” Sho says.
“I’ll be home in a few hours. I need to eat and stuff,” Nino says rubbing his eyes.
“Okay. Stay safe. I love you, bye,” Sho replies.
“You too, bye,” Nino says hanging up, his head falling back into Ohno’s one and only pillow.
Ohno continues painting when Nino looks at him from the bed, “That was him, right? Your boyfriend?”
“Yeah.”
“Ah…well I’m painting a picture of you,” Ohno says, changing the subject.
“What of? I hope it’s not my ass,” Nino giggles.
“Your sleeping face. It’s cute,” Ohno says.
Nino blushes. “Okay, well I guess that’s fine.” Nino stretches and curls up again. “So we did it, huh? Right on your dirty futon.”
“It’s not that dirty,” Ohno says, “It’s just been well loved.”
Nino giggles again and gets up. “I’m gonna go wipe myself off and then I’ll head out, okay?”
Ohno nods and continues painting.
So you’re cheating physically and emotionally now, and you don’t feel the slightest bit guilty?
No, I needed this. I haven’t felt this happy in a long time.
Then break things off with Sho.
I can’t…I love him.
You love him, but you cheat?
Nino cleans and dresses himself and then wanders out to say goodbye to Ohno.
“I’m leaving now, Oh-chan.”
Ohno rises from his seat and hugs Nino tightly, “I’ll text you, okay? We’ll get together another time.”
Nino hugs him back just as tight, “Of course.” He smiles cutely and kisses Ohno before taking his leave.
The apartment is quiet when Nino returns home. Sho is not anywhere in sight, and all the lights were shut off. No one is home.
Nino sighs and goes to the bedroom and sits on the edge of the bed. He stares at the floor, almost sad that Sho said he’d be home, but he was no longer.
“I’ll take a bath,” he says to himself.
He plugs the tub and turns the faucet, filling it with warm water. He adds some bath salts and strips. Wondering where Sho went off to, he quickly grabs his phone naked, and then rushes back to the warm bathroom. He gets in the bath with his phone and texts Sho.
[Kazu]: Where are you? I just got home. I didn’t even eat anything yet.
After five minutes, Sho replies.
[Sho <3]: I got called back in to work. Sorry, babe. There is some leftover chicken in the fridge if you want to eat that for lunch.
[Kazu]: Okay…I’ll see you later then?
[Sho <3]: Of course, baby.
Nino sets his phone on the ledge of the bathtub and soaks in the warm water up to his chin. He thinks about his sexy night with Ohno and his heart flutters. He thinks about Ohno for almost 20 minutes straight.
“I’m really falling for that guy…” he says to himself, “But I still love Sho-chan…he takes care of me…”
You don’t love Sho-chan, you love that old man. Not to mention Sho-chan leaves you by yourself a lot, cancels plans with you, leaves you in the dust when the old man will always meet with you and pleasure you.
“I believe they both care for me…” he says again, out loud to himself.
You know, instead of battling yourself, you could drown in this tub, right here, right now. Done. Gone. You won’t have to worry about upsetting anyone, rejecting anyone. Escape your problems. Just do it here.
“Doesn’t it hurt? It seems scary…” his voice echoes against the tiled bathroom walls.
Not at all! Just a few minutes of your time, to end time. I t would be scarier to get hit by a car. Give it a try.
Nino gives in.
He takes a deep breath and scoots his butt forward in the tub so his head would go under water easier. Slowly he lowers his head in, until he takes in one last breath and dips under.
Water fills his ears so he can only hear his heart beating. His eyes are close so everything is black, but he is surrounded by warmth.
He holds his breath for 30 seconds. He feels his body screaming for oxygen, but he denies it that right.
Another 30 seconds pass. Time seems to slow down, the seconds growing drastically longer as the counting in his head grows foggy, his body trying to focus his attention on the need for oxygen; he ignores it.
A minute and a half goes by; he holds his body down in the tub, his hand knocking his phone to the floor.
Two minutes and he blacks out, his lungs forcefully taking in water, choking him without his knowing.
Two minutes and five seconds and Sho finds him in the tub. He pulls Nino’s body from the water and calls to him, but there is no response. He tries rescue breathing and CPR. To his luck, Nino’s unconscious body expels the water and he wakes up coughing, confused, and weak.
“Kazunari! Baby! Are you okay?” Sho says worried, almost crying.
Nino’s vision is blurry, but he manages to respond, “I’m sorry…” He coughs hard.
“What happened?” Sho demands, hugging Nino’s small, wet body.
“I…fell asleep in the tub,” he says weakly, “I’m sorry, Sho-chan…” He cough heavily some more.
Sho scoops him up and takes him to the bedroom, “Come on, let’s take you to see a doctor.”
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My name is Ninomiya Kazunari, and I hate myself. I tried to drown myself to just get things over with. I wouldn’t have to deal with loving both Sho-chan and Oh-chan, and I wouldn’t have to seek help. I don’t want help.
I slept with Oh-chan. I wanted to. We don’t even know each other well. When I want to get intimate with Sho-chan, he pushes me away, says he’s tired or he just doesn’t feel like it. We hadn’t had sex in over two months, so I stopped asking.
I wish I could say, “Have sex with me. Don’t you think I’m attractive?” but I’m afraid of what his answer would be.
I’m fine on the outside, but I know I’m depressed badly on the inside. I don’t want help from anyone. They’d look down on me.
I am Ninomiya Kazunari, and I have decided to kill myself.
I’m glad you’ve finally decided.
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“Hey, Kazu, what about this one?” Sho says, holding up a blue tie to his neck, “Classy?”
Nino seems distracted but answers, “Ah, hmm…I like the red one better.” Sho grabs the red one and exchanges it. He waits for Nino’s approval. In turn, Nino just gives him a hollow smile and a thumbs up.
Sho wanders around and Nino follows him lazily. “You can look for yourself too, Kazu,” Sho says turning to him.
“Naw, it’s okay. I have enough clothes,” Nino replies with a sigh.
“Don’t you need a new sweater? It’s getting colder out,” Sho asks.
“Naw, it’s fine. I have enough sweaters…”
Sho frowns a bit but shrugs it off. They spend the rest of their evening combing through clothes racks in the mall. Sho is around more because he now takes more time off to spend with Nino.
Nino’s phone vibrates; he has a text. He opens his phone and sees that the message is from Ohno. He giggles and smiles, his whole mood shifting. Sho notices.
[Old man]: Hey, I miss you ;)
Nino replies immediately with a big grin.
[Kazu]: I miss you too, Oh-chan :3 Dinner last time was fun. I’ll pay next time, I promise.
[Old man]: I don’t mind paying for your dinner. When can I see you next?
Nino wanders off while texting on his phone and Sho follows him.
[Kazu]: I don’t work tomorrow; we can meet up if you want.
[Old man]: I have a dentist appointment in the morning, but I can meet you afterward.
Right as Nino begins typing his return message, Sho snatches the phone from his hand, “Who are you talking to?” He starts reading the most recent message.
“Who’s ‘Old man’?” he asks.
Nino rips the phone back from Sho and closes it, “He’s a friend from work! We hang out a lot. He looks like an old man, so I call him an old man,” Nino replies.
“Ah, well tell him goodbye, we’re busy,” Sho says.
“Sorry…” Nino says, opening his phone and replying to Ohno.
[Kazu]: Sounds lovely. I’ll wait for you at lunch time at our park, okay? Love you.
[Old man]: Love you too, baby.
They arrive home and Sho is in a weird mood.
“Hey, we should make dinner together,” he says, digging through the fridge.
Nino is confused and shakes his head, “I’m too tired and lazy. I just want to watch TV. But you can make dinner!” His tone is playful and Sho enjoys it.
“Alright alright, I’ll make dinner, but I get a kiss later then, you’re stingy these days,” Sho says pulling out some onion and the leftover chicken.
Nino doesn’t answer and just watches TV. Sho earns his kiss from Nino and later on, Nino heads to bed early, tired from their day-long shopping trip. Sho, curious and suspicious about Nino’s attitude, communication and his secret phone messages, he sneaks into the bedroom and takes Nino’s phone off the dresser.
Nino, covered with blankets, hears Sho come in and mess with the buttons on his phone because they make a soft beeping noise. Knowing that there is no way he can stop Sho now, he just lies in bed unmoving, staring blankly at the corner of the nightstand next to the bed.
Sho enters Nino’s inbox and looks through the messages. They’re either from him, or from this “Old man” guy. He opens some up, and they’re general “what’s up” messages or “let’s meet up” messages, but as he scrolls back in time, they are more intimate. He reads such messages as “How much do you love my ass, Oh-chan?” Sho then reads the response, “Enough to make you scream next time.”
Shocked and disgusted, his heart racing and breaking, he reads Nino’s response back, “Ahn~ <3 I can’t wait for next time.”
He stares at the message sadly and shuts Nino’s phone, placing it in the exact place he found it. He stands at the dresser for another five minutes and then goes to the living room and doesn’t come back to sleep with Nino in the bed.
You’re such a slut, Kazunari. Just die already!