not the writer!!! he's mostly gay, anyhow.

[juniper_trees]

i am sick sick sick (fever, burning nostrils, aches, sore throat, exhaustion, more fever, tea, orange juice, do i have h1n1?

i am anxious; with many things to DO and a couple things to ACCOMPLISH within the coming weeks
photos
new place
photos
get cheques
start two new jobs
plane ticket
farm contacts
new place
i need new places

it doesn't even need to be my own (although i would prefer it)
it just can't be so foul.    this place smells of rot, of boy, of our waste and excess barf toilet water everywhere soggy basement vermin filled kitchen  I AM JUST NOT COMFORTABLE HERE EVER.

i am sick of people --sick of what they lack (because oh how i am wise and perfected in all of my ways duh)
especially toronto people
especially toronto species of the male variety
especially toronto species of the female varity

i want that southern man. you know. it is weird to say the name of the person fucking you when it the same name as your dad's.

i need to get out of this place. i have never felt this way so fervently!! two exclamation marks gotta get the fuck out like!!

racial profiling.