Journal of a mindfucker.
The Fag:
A perfect asshole. We seemed like a grand duet, we could have ruled, I imagine. Yet your self-centered attitude that rivals mine in every way makes me angrier than any enemy would. We've grown too close to step back now and I've no right to judge you on your judgements, however collide with me more often and you'll find yourself alone.
The Koi:
You're truly the only one I've never desired to hurt. You've been nothing but kind to me and lovely for putting up with me. However, the closer I get the more you seem to run from me. It's no easy task to ignore the rage you fill me with, and you loathe me more when I don't hesitate to let you know. I've decided to leave you, to your own devices and to her. I know she will hurt you because I've known her before, but I won't tell you that. Sometimes you have to fuck your life up by yourself to learn the truth.
The Airen:
You can't just hide away and avoid me if you're afraid of what you feel. It can't be so horrible to love me that you'd kill me to be done with it. I don't believe it and I won't. I'm sick of making your excuses for you to allow me in your life. If you want to see me fine, I'm not begging you anymore. Your absence could be hell or it could be what we need. Either way, I wish you well in your trip.
The Ryuusei:
And still you plauge my mind. It's fine if you miss me but don't remind me that I might still need you. I don't think I do, but I may. You've brought me strong to this place and thanks. I wish you would come out of the shadows and show yourself. My strings are tired and since you've retired, it's no fun. If you're thinking of me let me know, it can't be too bad to set something up in flames.
The Rose:
So you've found that one at last. How to be happy when the love of your life marries? Well 'tis no matter now, I've agreed to serve you. Your giddy grin sets my heart a light and I don't think I could be happier. I know you'll always want me there. Foolish, don't you think that you should ask for me when we both know you're to be wed soon? Maybe it was a slip of the tongue. I love you for it all the more.
The Link:
And what to say to the greatest love of all? Your strength astounds me and I've no idea how I've gone without your love. Or your smile, or that part of my soul you left me with. I crave your presence and I suppose that entitles me to demanding it. You'll be hearing from me soon.