Like a pointalism painting you gotta take a step back and just look.
Life is a funny thing I sit here day by day just dealing with what has been thrown my way with the littlest effort possible. I think about what I want to do or what I want to eat and never plan for the future, I dont like it(the planning)sitting around laying out a path and following it because it takes the "fun" out of life. Im not saying what I do is smart or better but I feel like there is a shit load of stress that I dont deal with by carving my path day by day. I feel like im going to be happy in the future and without a path to fall off of I am always on track.....anyway that has nothing with what I really want to post about....
Life is funny when you try so hard to get something it has a way of evading you until you dont want to pursue it anymore then it dangles back in your reach to get you to chase again. Like girls the girl I liked was leading me on then I stopped caring so she would say things like hey handsome or lover and get me thinking again. Unfortunatly for her it back fired becasue I figured out I dont like her anymore because she dosent live near me and I just dont like her. The girl I think I like currently is from brook park but goes to school elsewhere, I dunno what to say because she is cool but I dont see myself having a chance with her even though she is single and we usually have great conversations.....I have not known her for a long time but I will get to know her more over the summer and break hopefully. I dont feel like im getting anywhere with girls as of late I always end up in the friend zone.... Angela my boss told me I need to be a dick which is funny coming from a girl but there in lies the problem I dont like being a dick I mean I can be one but I dont know how to use it to my advantage usuallly I just do it ot make people realize how dumb they are. Its 235am and I have a final at 8am for macro-econ and i feel like im going to blow it, I have not slept good in a long time. I sleep alot during the day and stuff like I get long naps and everything but I have not had a satisfying sleep in a long time, The last time was when I was cuddling pillows just dont do it for me.....
Thats my little piece of mind.
Live for the day viva underdog.
Life is funny when you try so hard to get something it has a way of evading you until you dont want to pursue it anymore then it dangles back in your reach to get you to chase again. Like girls the girl I liked was leading me on then I stopped caring so she would say things like hey handsome or lover and get me thinking again. Unfortunatly for her it back fired becasue I figured out I dont like her anymore because she dosent live near me and I just dont like her. The girl I think I like currently is from brook park but goes to school elsewhere, I dunno what to say because she is cool but I dont see myself having a chance with her even though she is single and we usually have great conversations.....I have not known her for a long time but I will get to know her more over the summer and break hopefully. I dont feel like im getting anywhere with girls as of late I always end up in the friend zone.... Angela my boss told me I need to be a dick which is funny coming from a girl but there in lies the problem I dont like being a dick I mean I can be one but I dont know how to use it to my advantage usuallly I just do it ot make people realize how dumb they are. Its 235am and I have a final at 8am for macro-econ and i feel like im going to blow it, I have not slept good in a long time. I sleep alot during the day and stuff like I get long naps and everything but I have not had a satisfying sleep in a long time, The last time was when I was cuddling pillows just dont do it for me.....
Thats my little piece of mind.
Live for the day viva underdog.