Well poop!
Last night I got a letter from camp saying they picked someone else to be assitant director of day camp. Talk about a bummer. I kinda knew that would happen but it still hurts. I think the main source of contention I have is that they did it though a letter. A form letter nonetheless. It just sucks. I'm sitting here trying to figure out what I'm going to do now. The one thing I wanted to do this summer is shot to hell. I'm just not excited about this summer anymore. Its going to be the same shit. I've done everything I've wanted to do as a counselor. Yeah I know I'm not perfect but its no challange to me, and if I'm not challenged I'm bored, and do I really want to go through the sumemr bored?
Yeah I know it'll be fun but I realize I'm going to hit a point in the summer where its going to hit me and I"m going to say, "Why the fuck am I still a counselor?" and get really pissed off. If anything I know I'm going to be frustrated by the loads and loads of bullshit I'm going to have to put up with, without any power or say. I like how they make the bullshit distinction of we'd like to welcome you back as a veteran counselor. What the fuck is a veteran counselor? I've wasted so much of my time dedicating my life to this company and this is what I get? Fuck them. I feel so manipulated. They spend all school year telling me how great I am and how they want to see me in a leadership role in camp and they pull this shit with me. Its so frustrating because there is nothing I can do about it. I can get all pissed off but that's not going to change anything. Fuck I'm so go damn angry at this situation.
Yeah I know it'll be fun but I realize I'm going to hit a point in the summer where its going to hit me and I"m going to say, "Why the fuck am I still a counselor?" and get really pissed off. If anything I know I'm going to be frustrated by the loads and loads of bullshit I'm going to have to put up with, without any power or say. I like how they make the bullshit distinction of we'd like to welcome you back as a veteran counselor. What the fuck is a veteran counselor? I've wasted so much of my time dedicating my life to this company and this is what I get? Fuck them. I feel so manipulated. They spend all school year telling me how great I am and how they want to see me in a leadership role in camp and they pull this shit with me. Its so frustrating because there is nothing I can do about it. I can get all pissed off but that's not going to change anything. Fuck I'm so go damn angry at this situation.