Oct 21, 2004 14:44
Okay, first and foremost last night Scottie and I went to the movies to see Team America: World Police - and it was absolutely outstanding! There is something to be said about vomiting marionettes and puppets having sex - OMG I thought I was going to pee I was laughing so hard!
Prior to going to the movies I met Argyle for coffee and Leann - I miss her a great deal. Leann provided me with quite possibly the best advice she has ever given me. She is the only friend that I have ever had that can be very honest and upfront about things. She never intends to hurt me but gets to the point and does not mess around. If I am fucking up - she'll tell me.
The advice that she gave me was outstanding and since last night I have been heavuly thinking and processing what I heard. I have brought some of my issues to the table with others and they always give the same response - nothing. Since chatting with Leann I feel severly relieved and at the same time very saddened. I know what needs to happen and it is something that I am going to slowly accomplish. Part of this is going to hurt and it already is and the other is going to be very good for me. Thank you Leann for always being there for me!
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Today - I went to school and had no fun. I thought that I had failed an exam on Tuesday but turns out I got a C on it. The highest grade warranted a C so the teacher curved the exam. The written portion of the exam I got an A but the multiple choice was failed horribly! Regardless - I passed the exam and that is something in itself.
Thereafter I had my AIDS class where we discussed gift givers and big chasers (those who have an intent to contract HIV)and the careless lifestyle of at risk behavior exhibited by so many young homosexuals. This guy in the front of the class opinionated that it was due to str8 cultures inability to legalize gay marriage and therefore there is no solidarity to look forward to so why would they care. Good Point I say. And then the lone girl that believes that homosexuality is a choice says I disagree it is purely a negligent lifestyle choice!
And then...
I raised my hand. I said the following, "As a young gay man that experiences these incidents daily I am going to have to agree with the guy in the front of the room whereas this girl to my right has no idea what she is speaking of. In fact, she is passing judgement on an outgroup that she knows nothing of!" I went on to state that "this negligence is something that we truly need to pay attention to because the stigma brought on to our gay youth is why they are the largest group of teenage suicide and the largest per capita group of homeless youth. It is the attitude of this young lady over here that has pushed these gay youth to this mindset where they have no care for themselves because society has failed them! Further, many of these homeless gay kids are kicked out of their home for being gay and partake in survival sex in order to make money, how is this simply a lifestyle?"
the class snickered at her and the teacher appreciated me.
I am done typing now because I am hungry and need food.
Xavier