today

Jul 26, 2008 16:00

started out ok

im glad i made it home alright.

im glad to have had such a good weekend so far

but

i feel

sad

i just want to be drunk.. and not be at work anymore

i got a lotto ticket... but the results arent in... so i cant get my money yet

but for sure i prolly won

ha ha

i kicked out this crack head who trashed one of the rooms.. she was a total hooker and had a john check her in... the fucked the room up.. she did weird tweaker shit.. like turn everything up side down.

im glad i dont smoke the meth any more..

or do h or any bullshit like that

even the cutest gay boys like yours trully can turn into something that feels the need to destroy everything they touch.. some lost soul... no longer having a place to fit in a side from the one that was created and is only made for people such as themselves.. an artificial.. abomanation of a part of society..

she was so dumb when i checked her in.. i knew that she would be trouble..

it sucks... becuase people i love and share the same blood with are the very same type of people.. junked out... no soul or roll in a world today where nothing else matters... but it matters...
\

yea Jewel

umn

tweakers and junkie bitchs arent even whats bothering me atm...
i just thought i should mention a my day at work story since SK mentioned them the other day lol

but yea

im...
not going to the party tonight.. last night was cool but.. im a lil partied out.. im jsut gonna go get my drank on with my best friend.. and not think about dumb... guy shit..

i wanna lay in bed... and just sleep and eat sun chips and dip them in sour cream and watch tv (if i had a tv in my room) and only get up when i really really have to use the bathroom

smoking cigarettes all day every 20 minutes

i want to delet this stupid fucking lj... drop my phone in the storm drain on my way home from work.. cut off all communiction with everyone..

get a ten cats and never keep up on taking care of them.. and live in a nasty run down apartment...

basicly i want to live how i feel right now..

im so sad.. and fuckin empty...
i hate it..

why do i get like this? if im not careful im going to be an alchohlic and end up killing my self from being to crazy..

fuck

i cant wait to see haylee tonight

and listen to death cab.. and talk to chris on the phone about how i feel like poo

'hope everyone has a good time :/
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