Random thoughts...
So I talked to Ms. Scharmal Schrock herself (aka SSSSSSSS) today!!! She sends her love to all...
We had a nice long convo about my recital, grad schools, and auditioning for the Met. We talked for nearly 45 minutes. It was great.
She said that if I could pull it off, she thinks I should audition for the Met this fall, because I would be in the Southern Region. If not to advance to the next level, then just for audition purposes. If I go to the next round, great, but if not, then I will have that experience under my belt. Then, once I get into grad school, I could audition again, but most likely would be in another region, so I would get a different panel of judges, and different experience all together. The only drawback though, is that I need to brush up on my music from last semester because I was sick when boards rolled around this past semester, AND I'm working on my recital music this summer, too. That would be an awful lot of material if I tried to get my 5 arias perfected by September or October...whenever the auditions start.
Ms. Schrock also suggested some more schools to audition for, so the standing list is as follows: Indiana University (of course), University of Michigan, North Carolina School for the Arts, University of North Texas, Rice University, University of Houston, and Florida State University. I may audition at James Madison University in Harrisonburg, VA, but I know nothing about their music program, and none of the voice teachers I have talked to know anything about it. LSU, from what I hear, has a great instrumental department, but a sucky vocal department, and also from what I hear, I "could do much better". I dunno. Including JMU, that would be EIGHT schools to audition for. I am a madwoman if I do all eight.
I am so scared about the next step in my life...so many changes. I most likely will be by myself, because Stuart will probably be getting paid enough to stay down here by the time I get ready to go. I think it will be REALLY hard to live away from him now that I have lived with him. So, being in a new place, with new people, and new everything, is very frightening, I'm sure. And, I have so many insecurities about myself that I am scared to leave. I have been left in the past for other girls, and I know Stu is not like that, but in the back of my mind, some little voice is telling me, "out of sight, out of mind...if you leave, he'll find someone else". I keep telling it to go away, but it won't. We've talked about it before, and he has assured me he isn't going anywhere, but it's hard to believe that someone actually wants to be with me forever and promises to never leave me. I get all teary-eyed just thinking about it. So, enough about this.
Day after tomorrow, we're going to New Orleans for a couple of days to have some "us time". There's really nothing to do here in Hammond but go to a movie or go out to eat...and that gets boring. So we're going to the zoo and the aquarium, and we're spending the night at Hotel Royal. Never stayed there before, so I don't know what to expect. But, just spending time together, alone, will be enough fun in itself. I just hope there's not too many people there, because the Essence Festival is starting up a couple of days later.
Okay, this is enough typing, and enough reading for you...if you have read all of this. Anyway, I hadn't had a real post in so long, so I thought I'd update. Off to eat dinner, and then take an Anthropology final. Ugh.
Ta ta!!!