(no subject)
I feel like all the shit that I and my teachers have been trying to drill into my head over the last year or years or whatever has bled together into this huge mass of squirming, lumpy grey that I fish around in blindly when forced to sit down and put together what I know, in the optimistic conviction that I'll pull out the right stuff, or pull out anything at all. Everything is just this homogenous pile of uselessness.