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eating rockmelon.
avoiding homework.
feeling strange. not too great. unsettled I guess. kind of confused. also tired- slept from 4am-12pmish, but only very poorly/intermittently.
lewis and noah's was a good party. I wish something was different so that going to max's tonight would be a good idea. Even getting there and back wasn't as much of a struggle as I thought it would be.
this entry has been taking a while. I'll write a sentence or two and then go read facebook notes or some shit for a bit, then come back and write another sentence.
succesfully snuck reza into the house, had him sleep over and then snuck him out again without my dad noticing. I think maybe my dad just has really poor visual-check skills- he stood right next to my bed to tell me he was going for a run and that I should probably get out of bed, he even leaned over and kissed me on the cheek, and he still managed not to notice reza sleeping on the floor on the other side of the bed.
I have no money and no cigarettes. D:
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I still somehow hope I end up with you
Yes, it's true
I romanticize every single thing I do
especially when it comes to you
I hope to God I mean a little more then the sounds that escape your tired 4 A.M. lips
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I want a lover I don't have to love
I want a boy who's so drunk he doesn't talk
Where's the kid with the chemicals
I got a hunger and I can't seem to get full
I need some meaning I can memorize
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind
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Now I do as I please, and I lie through my teeth
Someone might get hurt, but it won't be me
Should probably feel cheap, but I just feel free
And a little bit empty
No, it isn't so hard to get close to me
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