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Colds are made of fail!!!!
I sound like a scary cat who's recently been hit by a semi and is crawling towards the side of the road. Because, yeah, I know what those sound like.
And I hate to be introspective but
I'm going to be 24 years old in a little over a month. I know it sounds young, and full of promise, but I look back on my life and realize that there are so many gray areas. It's like I'm not sure if this is where I should be, or that is what I should be doing.
I totally understand the midlife crisis thing now, because I think I may be going through a mid-20s crisis. Half the time I want to curl up on the couch and watch the history channel. The other half I want to go out and party. I hate being so damn indecisive about everything. Is it a normal 20 year old thing or is it a Pisces thing?
I also worry. A lot. I worry about my kids not being happy. I worry that they'll grow up and hate me. I worry about a revolt against computers and me finding myself out of a job. I worry that Rick will break up with me, find someone older and more sophisticated.
I think that's my biggest fear. It's all been too good, we're too happy. I'm always waiting on the other shoe to drop. I can honestly say that every other guy that I've ever dated has always liked me a little more than I've liked them. I felt like I've always had the upper hand. Now, I'm not so sure. I'm definitely head over heels in love. And he knows it.
I just can't believe that someone actually loves me that much. It's crazy. That he actually wants to be with me, he plans things with me, he wants me in his life. Amazing. And I love him! Did I mention that? :)
I sound like a scary cat who's recently been hit by a semi and is crawling towards the side of the road. Because, yeah, I know what those sound like.
And I hate to be introspective but
I'm going to be 24 years old in a little over a month. I know it sounds young, and full of promise, but I look back on my life and realize that there are so many gray areas. It's like I'm not sure if this is where I should be, or that is what I should be doing.
I totally understand the midlife crisis thing now, because I think I may be going through a mid-20s crisis. Half the time I want to curl up on the couch and watch the history channel. The other half I want to go out and party. I hate being so damn indecisive about everything. Is it a normal 20 year old thing or is it a Pisces thing?
I also worry. A lot. I worry about my kids not being happy. I worry that they'll grow up and hate me. I worry about a revolt against computers and me finding myself out of a job. I worry that Rick will break up with me, find someone older and more sophisticated.
I think that's my biggest fear. It's all been too good, we're too happy. I'm always waiting on the other shoe to drop. I can honestly say that every other guy that I've ever dated has always liked me a little more than I've liked them. I felt like I've always had the upper hand. Now, I'm not so sure. I'm definitely head over heels in love. And he knows it.
I just can't believe that someone actually loves me that much. It's crazy. That he actually wants to be with me, he plans things with me, he wants me in his life. Amazing. And I love him! Did I mention that? :)