Oh, Thoughtful Me...10 [WARNING: Full of Confessions]
Okay soo....
I have a confession to make.
In 1st period, I honestly had a weird thought, and I wonder if it was made intentional..
or not.
So, today, I saw Chris sitting behind me, and he was playing with his hand cast... thing.
His hand is still swollen. Aww D:
And like, this is a weird confession...
but I started observing his features more...
and I started to see...
His eyes are amazing with a pretty crystal blue.
His nose is small and cute.
His face structure is just masculine and buff.
His lips are PERFECT.
His arms are good and fit.
His legs are good and strong.
His feet are bigger than mine (lol...)
Then I realized....
how attractive he really is...
OMG.
I can't believe I'm thinking this...
But you have to admit, all the features I named of him are just all... -sigh-
Wayyy better than Jared and Will COMBINED.
But it makes me wonder if he knows that and if it's going to change the way he sees me...
I don't want that.
I want him here for me all the time.
Call me selfish and obsessive, but that's my thoughts.
I just wish that he was just mine.... everyone else didn't matter to him.
Just me.
But how the fudge is that possible, when he only sees me as this "nerd"?
But I'm just kidding myself.
Lol. All of this, because of his beautiful blue eyes.
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So... it turns out Jeremiah broke up with his girlfriend a few days back.
That's sad.. :\
But I guess things just don't work out.
Anyways, so today, I kept smiling and stuff...
And all of a sudden, I would keep seeing him turn away...
WTF, JEREMIAH???
Me: Why are you doing that??
Jeremiah: It's too cute for me to handle..!
Hmm....(:
I don't know if this is a good thing or bad thing....
considering the fact that he just broke up with a friend of mine.
And the fact I don't think that way.
Maybe it's just a friend compliment.
YEAHHH :DD
I always overreact to things, no?
So.... yupp!!(:
It's all good :D
And then I talked to Jared again....
He is the most CONFUSING guy ever...
How dare he ask me to help him, me go over there, BEG me to help him out, me say no, and hug me without letting go just so I can help him??
I mean, who does that???
And he even hugged me a little tight and even put his head on top of mine...
He says he's gonna "pay me back".
HOW, GENIUS?!
What could you POSSIBLY have that I couldn't earn on my own?!?!?!?!
Well, anyways, in the end I decided to help out of sheer kindness
(Oh me.. -_____-")
But like, the keyboard is like, RIGHT in front of him
And I didn't have enough KB cord to pull it further towards me.
So.... I had to pretty much lean myself against him to type.
REALLY NOW????
Jared.... why do you confuse me?
I'm trying to forget about you.
Because I KNOW you don't like me back.
I'm trying to act like I never did like you.
Because it was a regret I can't shake off.
And yet..?!
Ohh dear...
why are you doing this to me?...