Oh, Thoughtful Me...3
So, sadly enough, memories started coming back to me.
Not necessarily childhood memories, but memories of before I moved to the computer seat I'm on right now..
First day of school, I sat next to a guy named Mitchell.
I was a little shy then, and didn't talk as much, and so I gave him the answers to questions silently and helped him out slowly..
Then we started talking a few sentences...
then we moved.
I moved to a seat next to a girl named Josselin. (sp?)
She was cool, but she didn't seem interested to me at all.
And I sat next to this other guy.... I forgot his name.
And I also sat next to Thomas.
It was actually pretty fun sitting there.
They were funny (except Josselin. She didn't seem interested)
Then we moved. AGAIN.
I moved next to Jared (that's his real name; not Jason) and the girl named Sabrina.
It was a LOT better sitting there.
We related a LOT, we got along a LOT better.
We related more and we actually laughed and crud.
Then. We-- that's right. AGAIN.
And thus, here I am.
Starting over again.
It's not a bad thing, starting over again...
just feels like the first day of school. again.
The teacher needs to realize that, no matter how many times she moves us, the class will NEVER be 100% silent.
They're minorities, what do you expect?
But some of them were cool (Thomas[<< yeah, not really], Jared, etc.) but most of them are pretty.... muck.
{Is that even a word?}
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I don't know why, but I keep trying to convince myself I still have a chance with either Jared or Will.
There's another guy who I think will ask me, but I know FOR SURE I'm misleading myself.
His name is Chris. He's the guy who sits behind me in Algebra.
We're just friends, if not, aquaintences, but we talk a lot and laugh together (like me and Jared used to)
I never thought I would like him like that, and I still don't think I do.
But if he WAS to ask me, then I guess I wouldn't say no.
He's weird. He's a World of Warcraft/Halo/Call of Duty freak.
but you know what?
He's a JV Football player. He's in honors classes. He's smart, funny, attractive, nice, kind, and actually has a heart.
(I know he has a heart because when his girlfriend broke up with him on Homecoming, he looked VERY upset. Like, at the brink of crying. A lot of the FB players here are literally, players.)
So Chris is very different.
If Will asked me, that's a definite YES right there.
Jared is still a consideration; I still don't think things would work out with him.
Jared's smart. He's funny. Cool. VERY attractive. Plays football and baseball.
But he's a complete whackjob.
(Maybe he's got hit in the head too many times. -coughfootballcough-)
And we ALL know what Will is to me....>>
to the point, I have so many options, but none of them seem available to me.
It's like seeing 3 open jobs in medication, but you have no degrees in medicine whatsoever.
(Great metaphor :D)
I have NO experience dating a "bad boy" like Jared, a JVFB player like Chris, OR a nerd"ish" person like Will.
Well, I sort of came between, but... not necessarily the pure category.
I've only had 2 "true" boyfriends.
First one was just plain WEIRD.
Second one was a preppy, Korean boy who didn't feel like getting good grades, but has to in order to keep his parents happy.
Neither of them played sports. Both stayed faithful (sort of...), and both got grades as good as, if not WORSE, than me.
... -sigh- I should really choose better guys..
But I swear, I'm in the right track!!
Maybe not with Jared, but... I know with the other two!!
Well, both have a lot of friends. GIRL. friends.
That's a pet peeve of mine.
When your boyfriends talk to other girls more than they do to you?
I HATE that.
But it's not something I can control, so... I guess I have to deal with it.
There is no perfect guy out there. There's no such thing.
But there is a guy out there who will come the closest.
But it just takes effort to find the right person.
A LOT of effort.