Never the same
"You get a strange feeling when you're about to leave a place . . . Like you'll not only miss the people you love, but you'll miss the person you are now at this time and this place, because you'll never be this way ever again."
- Azar Nafisi, Reading Lolita in Tehran
I always say that the only constant in life is 'change'.. and I still hold by it.
We always say there are some things that will never change about a person, the leopard never changes its spots, yadda yadda..
having that said, how can we be so sure about that?
sure i didn't think that I would be who I am today when I was 14. I was very much just a delinquent, childish and angry.
Looking at myself today, i must say i am a little proud..
Give it a few more years mom and dad.. I'll give you all a more comfortable life. :)
This new year, I wish for everyone to be happy and healthy.
I wish that my grandma will be there to take pictures with me on reunion dinner for many many more years to come, posing w her supercute red packet.
I wish for everyone to love, and to be loved.
I wish that many years down the road, I will look back at this entry and smile knowing that I am still the same girl, the same selina who can be proud of myself.
I wish that I will still wake up in the morning to the clattering of pots and pans in the kitchen with momsie busying around, dad doing her taichi(qigong?) routine in the morning with the CD playing, myfatbro on my bed, snatching for the most comfortable spot, my brother soundly asleep in the next room, and me sulking away to ugly nails - Just like today.
Only that, I wish there will be someone..
who's working towards a better tomorrow with me, hand in hand <3
'现在, 我们要对十年后的自己投下一张信任票.
绝对......绝对不要成为我们看不起的那种大人.' -- 后青春期的诗, 九把刀