Panicking
Today I came up with the following rules. No checking email. No researching anything that isn't environmental art. No msn. No live journal. You will get up at 6am. You will work until at least 12am. No leaving room for more than 5 minutes (except for at meal times). No phoning. If people phone you, conversations should not last more than 5 minutes. Get dressed, pyjamas make you lazy. It is 4:30. I got up at 7:30 instead of 6. I've been working on my paper all day. I'm on page 17 of 25-30. It's really depressing to me because despite all these rules I found other ways to distract myself and now I'm kind of just going insane without all the things I've denied myself, hence breaking the rules because being hauled up in this room for so long with no real human contact is making me crazy. Maybe I just can't write this paper...god, I hate it. Make it go away.