Selfish.
I was born really selfish, really. I don't like to share. I hate sharing my best friends with others, I hate brainless fangirls liking KAT-TUN just because of their looks, and I don't want KAT-TUN to be popular here in my country. I'm so selfish so selfish so selfish, but what should I do?
I felt a bit... uhm... jealous when some of my friends start liking KAT-TUN (because of me LOL). They're not the kinda fangirls I hate, but well, now I'm not the only one who knows KAT-TUN (here) anymore. And it feels... awkward. I know I cannot keep KAT-TUN all to myself, but it just...
And I don't like it when my friend call Kame "Kazuya". She always called him "Kame", so why does she call him "Kazuya" after hearing me call him so? It's like she's copying me, but probably she's not. I'm just... strange. And it's not that I'm the only one who's allowed to call him "Kazuya". I love her dearly, I really really do, so why do I feel this way? Am I just too selfish? Am I?
It's great to have someone to fangirl with, but sometimes I feel like I just wanna hide KAT-TUN (or maybe just Kazuya) from the rest of the world. I must be reallly really weird... But I hate it when my friend said she disliked some of KAT-TUN's members (well she's a Kazuya's fan). I feel like she doesn't have the right to love KAT-TUN, when she's my friend, one of my best friends and also the one I was talking about earlier. As I've already said, I love her really really much, so why am I like this?
And to my friend that really loves Kazuya: I'm sorry, I'm really really sorry dear. I don't mean to offend you or anything, so please don't hate me for this. Maybe I'm just too selfish. But I'm glad you're by my side, flailing with me about Kazuya. So maybe after this post I'll be able to forget those strange feelings and well, become a bit less selfish. And I love you. I always do.