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it has to be the worst feeling in the world.. when you could cry over everything.. but theres not one thing that you can pinpoint your troubled feelings on..
i hate how i do stupid shit.. and i hate how an amazing person doesnt want to talk to me anymore.. and i hate that there is not a day that I dont think of Reno or Casey..
and i hate how not one person really knows how i feel.. and how one person cant take the time to ACTUALLY care about me..
"Even the best fall down sometimes.. and even the wrong words seem to rhyme.. and out of the doubt that fills your mind.. you somehow find.. you and i .. collide.."
Im the greatest actress I think I have ever come across..
I can keep up with the charades of day by day..
and i have the best audience to watch my solo..
and outta my monologue.. my simple plea..
for that outreached hand.. that doesnt think its a hassle to know how i feel..
I put so much feeling into my peice..
because I can relate to my character..
her slow deterioration..
her beat up ego and diminishing will..
they dont understand her battle ..
against herself..
shes been dead inside for years..
but no one sees it..
shes amazing at keeping her peers happy..
that it seems she doesnt need help..
but never has an audience been so wrong..
so sit back.. relax..
And make sure I get the standing ovation..
i know i deserve..
as little as that is..
Friday night.. and Im home .. just got done watching Girl, Interrupted and now Im listening to Howie Day.. because hes my savior..
how dare I think that what i have to say is important..
goodnight.. for those who actually care..