Well since I can't talk. and I am awake..
So I went into surgery Thursday morning at 5:30am. My sister, aunt and dad took me. It was kinda pointless for them to come since they were kicked out right when I was admitted. It's pretty ghetto at the county hospital, it was one room with seven people divided by curtains. There was a old man who changed into his gown right next to me, without using the curtains. I had to turn the other way. After the nurses put the ivs in me, a doctor came by and marked my face with a pen and said "Just in case we don't cut at the wrong place!" he smiled and gave me a eerie wink and left. After sent me into the room right before you go into the operating room (I don't know what that room is called). The lady who transported told me not to be nervous several times, I guess I have a bad poker face. While I was waiting in the room, there were interns, I believe they were specializing in anesthesiology. It hit me in the face when I saw that. They were with a professor, and he was asking the interns random questions, just quizzing them. He was like, so if you are going to do (I do not remember the term, but it is when you puncture your spine to admit anesthetics) what are the 7 layers you are going to go through? And then they started talking about a molecule and something they use is 50% ionized and why that is so crucial, it had to do with the passing of the lipid layers. It was cool, I understood the words they were using, but like no clue what they were talking about. SIGH. I really have to relearn everything.
The last thing I remember, was being in the operating room, and them putting a oxygen mask on me. And then I woke up in a room, everything was blurry but I heard the nurse's voice. I just remember her telling me do you need more morphine? And I gave a thumbs up and mumbled thank you. And then I woke up again, and it felt like I was peeing! I was like oh shit, so I touched my penis, and something was coming out of it, I was like WTF is this?! it was a plastic tube. I was like oh shit, they stuck a catheter in me! I guess the nurse saw me touching myself down there, so she came and took it out. All I know, it was painful, but it felt like I took a big shit through my penis. And then the next time I woke up, I was in the first room I came in. It was 3 0'clock and my sister and Lionel was there. My sister was like, "So take a pee so we can go home! This place closes at 5 and they won't let you leave unless you take a piss." I was so gone, and felt like throwing up, the nurse said they gave me alot of morphine which was why I felt like shit. I try to pee two times but it wouldn't come out! I was freaking out, I was like omg, what if the catheter like destroyed my peeing capabilities! But the third time I went in, it came out when I sat down. I got dressed, and i threw up. It was so fucking gross, because the vomit was solid black from the blood. And the fact that my teeth was wired shut, it was oozing out through my teeth and where my wisdom teeth used to be.
Once I got home I just passed out. I felt like shit, and didn't eat the first two days.I have been taking meds every 4-6 hours. I have random contusions in my hands, neck, shoulders and face. My neck is ridiculously sore. And my face is twice the size. I constantly have bloody noses due to the pressure build up in my face. I constantly have a ice pack on my face. I have a sick headache, from either the meds or the lack of nutrition. I can't talk, just mumble. I can't eat anything that is not a liquid. It has to be pure liquid, I can't take smoothies, its too hard for me to take in. I have been drinking water, 7-up and slim-fast. It has been 5 days. I never craved food so bad. I really want to eat meat. I like 90% made up my mind that I am going to eat meat when I can open my mouth. I didn't think it be this annoying. I spend 40% of the time, thinking of what I am going to eat once I can start eating. My obsession with food is driving me crazy. I got mad at my mom for eating toast in front of me, since I can't eat I just started mumbling like a mad man. And I hate commercials with a passion, ITS ALWAYS ABOUT FOOD. GOD@)($N)YBI!~!~!$##!$ I am so hungry. I can't open my mouth, so when I yawn its SO FUCKING ANNOYING!! My chin and bottom lip is numb. Its annoying because it tickles, but I can't scratch it!!!!!!! So I just put a ice pack on it. The doctor really sugar coated these symptoms.
I don't know if it is the meds, but I have had several detailed dreams. The first one I had was weird. The people I remember was David and Joseph, but the usual was there too. We were in this townhouse place. It was dawn. And someone open a door to a house, and nobody was in it. It was small, like there was a living room, and it had doors directly leading to other bedrooms. So there were no hallways or anything. All the doors were open and it was empty. So we got all excited and we were digging through everything and trying to see what should steal. I was in one room, and for some reason I took out my wallet and phone because I was shoving stuff in it to see if it would fit in my pocket. I don't know exactly what it was, but I walked out and I was like hey guys whats this? And there was a closed door. I was like who closed this door? And everyone looked at each other and Rod said "I don't remember seeing that door walking in here, we must have missed it." So I slowly opened the door and it was really dark and musty. And the blinds were all fucked up, so some of blinds was facing the opposite way letting some of the light leak through into the room. I followed the light to a bed, and there was someone there. And out of nowhere the bed moved and mumbled something. So I just turned around and just screamed HOLY SHIT SOMEONE IS HERE! ANd everyone just jetted out of there. It was so freaky. And we were in the van driving off, and I was like FUCK guys I left my phone and wallet in the room. And for some reason, its been exactly 2 hours (I don't know how and why I know its been two hours, but its been two hours since we left the place). So of course, everyone was giving me lip going "WOW way to drop the ball Jun Kim." and "You are so nice try Jun." I was like just drop me off so I can go get it. For some reason I knew that person was sick, and wouldn't get out of the bed, so I convinced everyone to drop me off. And then I woke up. LOL that was a weird dream.
Other dreams were eating. One was with Alex. The other was with Joseph. Both of them were pretty stupid, thats all I remember. I forgot which one, but one had to do with stealing and eating. -__- Oh man, its so hot, I am going to take a nap.
The last thing I remember, was being in the operating room, and them putting a oxygen mask on me. And then I woke up in a room, everything was blurry but I heard the nurse's voice. I just remember her telling me do you need more morphine? And I gave a thumbs up and mumbled thank you. And then I woke up again, and it felt like I was peeing! I was like oh shit, so I touched my penis, and something was coming out of it, I was like WTF is this?! it was a plastic tube. I was like oh shit, they stuck a catheter in me! I guess the nurse saw me touching myself down there, so she came and took it out. All I know, it was painful, but it felt like I took a big shit through my penis. And then the next time I woke up, I was in the first room I came in. It was 3 0'clock and my sister and Lionel was there. My sister was like, "So take a pee so we can go home! This place closes at 5 and they won't let you leave unless you take a piss." I was so gone, and felt like throwing up, the nurse said they gave me alot of morphine which was why I felt like shit. I try to pee two times but it wouldn't come out! I was freaking out, I was like omg, what if the catheter like destroyed my peeing capabilities! But the third time I went in, it came out when I sat down. I got dressed, and i threw up. It was so fucking gross, because the vomit was solid black from the blood. And the fact that my teeth was wired shut, it was oozing out through my teeth and where my wisdom teeth used to be.
Once I got home I just passed out. I felt like shit, and didn't eat the first two days.I have been taking meds every 4-6 hours. I have random contusions in my hands, neck, shoulders and face. My neck is ridiculously sore. And my face is twice the size. I constantly have bloody noses due to the pressure build up in my face. I constantly have a ice pack on my face. I have a sick headache, from either the meds or the lack of nutrition. I can't talk, just mumble. I can't eat anything that is not a liquid. It has to be pure liquid, I can't take smoothies, its too hard for me to take in. I have been drinking water, 7-up and slim-fast. It has been 5 days. I never craved food so bad. I really want to eat meat. I like 90% made up my mind that I am going to eat meat when I can open my mouth. I didn't think it be this annoying. I spend 40% of the time, thinking of what I am going to eat once I can start eating. My obsession with food is driving me crazy. I got mad at my mom for eating toast in front of me, since I can't eat I just started mumbling like a mad man. And I hate commercials with a passion, ITS ALWAYS ABOUT FOOD. GOD@)($N)YBI!~!~!$##!$ I am so hungry. I can't open my mouth, so when I yawn its SO FUCKING ANNOYING!! My chin and bottom lip is numb. Its annoying because it tickles, but I can't scratch it!!!!!!! So I just put a ice pack on it. The doctor really sugar coated these symptoms.
I don't know if it is the meds, but I have had several detailed dreams. The first one I had was weird. The people I remember was David and Joseph, but the usual was there too. We were in this townhouse place. It was dawn. And someone open a door to a house, and nobody was in it. It was small, like there was a living room, and it had doors directly leading to other bedrooms. So there were no hallways or anything. All the doors were open and it was empty. So we got all excited and we were digging through everything and trying to see what should steal. I was in one room, and for some reason I took out my wallet and phone because I was shoving stuff in it to see if it would fit in my pocket. I don't know exactly what it was, but I walked out and I was like hey guys whats this? And there was a closed door. I was like who closed this door? And everyone looked at each other and Rod said "I don't remember seeing that door walking in here, we must have missed it." So I slowly opened the door and it was really dark and musty. And the blinds were all fucked up, so some of blinds was facing the opposite way letting some of the light leak through into the room. I followed the light to a bed, and there was someone there. And out of nowhere the bed moved and mumbled something. So I just turned around and just screamed HOLY SHIT SOMEONE IS HERE! ANd everyone just jetted out of there. It was so freaky. And we were in the van driving off, and I was like FUCK guys I left my phone and wallet in the room. And for some reason, its been exactly 2 hours (I don't know how and why I know its been two hours, but its been two hours since we left the place). So of course, everyone was giving me lip going "WOW way to drop the ball Jun Kim." and "You are so nice try Jun." I was like just drop me off so I can go get it. For some reason I knew that person was sick, and wouldn't get out of the bed, so I convinced everyone to drop me off. And then I woke up. LOL that was a weird dream.
Other dreams were eating. One was with Alex. The other was with Joseph. Both of them were pretty stupid, thats all I remember. I forgot which one, but one had to do with stealing and eating. -__- Oh man, its so hot, I am going to take a nap.