Love Story / PG ; Kyuhyun/Sungmin
Love Story
PG ; Kyuhyun/Sungmin
Summary: When things seem perfect, one decision can change everything.
This is dedicated to my ex boyfriend Bashaum. I went through some old files saved on my computer and came across a track list for two CD’s that I made for him. The notes are actual notes that Bashaum wrote to me. I’ve kept every single one. Every mistake in the note is exactly how he wrote it. I just felt like this had to be written. And plus, right now, I don’t have anything better to do.
Bashaum, I’m so sorry for putting you through everything I did. You don’t deserve any of this. I didn’t ever deserve you. Just know that even to this day, I still love you the exact same way I did when we were madly in love with each other. I’m sorry, and I will always love you.
“I’ve had a crush on you for over a year. I can’t believe that I even have the chance to be talking to you like this right now.” Kyuhyun was holding Sungmin in his arms; holding as tight as he can, like as if Sungmin would just disappear.
“Kyu, you don’t have to worry. I’m always going to be here for you.” Sungmin looked up into Kyuhyun’s eyes and planted a small kiss against his lips. Kyuhyun flashed a beautiful smile.
Months went on, and the two couldn’t be separated. They had a love that was beyond anything that was seen from people so young. At school, people couldn’t believe that the two were actually together and from what it seemed, they weren’t going to break up any time soon. Kyuhyun gave his entire life to Sungmin. Sungmin did everything in his power to make sure that the love between them never died.
One morning, Kyuhyun handed Sungmin a folded piece of paper and told him to open it away from him. Sungmin smiled brightly and hugged his lover tight. Sungmin loved it when Kyuhyun surprised him with sweet little things like this. Sungmin waited until he was in his first class to open the note. As he began to read it, he almost started crying in the middle of class.
You know, I have a gut feeling about us. We will be fine, like later. I think that that is a good feeling. Now that I think about it, I’ve had some gut feelings in the past about us and they were all right. For example, us getting back together after the Tueki thing. But enough of that I just wanted you to know what I think about something when I think about you. When we are apart. 1st of all, like every day when I go home, it feels like days before I see you again … and it’s only the next day. I wish I like lived with you … but I think and really hope we will get there … Being with you makes me feel like I could do things beyond that complexities of this universe. It’s like I’ve snuck into heaven and talked to God himself. Damn, what an honor. Me and you, I don’t want it to end … like for real. This is really how I feel. Check it out.
If for some insane reason I wasn’t allowed to play music, make music, or listen to music … I would be OK with it … It’s like, … IDK … Do I make you feel nearly as good as you make me feel? I really want to know. I’m just very curious. Man, I can’t wait to give this to you. I love you sooooo much. I’ll tell you this, my mom better get real used to me being with you cause it’s 2 months and counting. Technically a lot longer than 2 cause we have been in love. But oh well, all part of this journey.
Seriously Sungmin, without you, I would not be Cho Kyuhyun. I would definitely be someone else. And honestly, I don’t want to see that person. I’m actually scared to see who I’ll be without you. Like seeing you, smelling you, touching you, kissing you makes me feel like the sunset. I don’t want to write you a book here so I’m gonna stop now. I LOVE YOU!
“Na Sarang Hae Yo”
-Love your boyfriend,
Kyu
After class, Sungmin went running to find Kyuhyun. Kyuhyun was standing there just waiting with a grin on his face. Sungmin jumped up into his arms and screamed, ‘I LOVE YOU BABY!’ and proceed to kiss him. Kyuhyun just smiled after and whispered ‘All my love will only belong to you.’
Months went on a Kyuhyun and Sungmin were still strong. Many had tried to come in between them, but no one succeed. Kyuhyun and Sungmin did have their own problems though. Because of their parents, they weren’t ever aloud to see each other outside of school so this brought on a lot of stress. Sungmin was a very clingy person and wanted to be with his man as much as possible and not seeing Kyuhyun was driving him crazy. Winter break came along and right before the last day, Kyuhyun gave Sungmin another note.
Ok, I have been thinking about this a lot. I think about it everyday. The reason why I think about it is because of how you make me feel. I have realized and convinced that only you can make me feel. When you feel that, you are never ready to let something like that. I have seriously, seriously analyzed my feelings for you and how much I love you Sungmin and, … I guess I do want to eventually be married to you. That is how I’ve been feeling. Up until now, I have been SOOOO scared of telling you this. I guess I was scared of telling you and feeling alone about it, because that’s a bad feeling. But … there it is I said it. That’s what I meant when I said I’ve committed myself to you. You are what and who I want and I am perfectly fine with it. I know what I want. I will do anything for you. I will go through some of the most severe levels of stress if its for you. I don’t care how bad I have to hurt emotionally; if its for you, I don’t care. One way or another, if we are both very serious about our feelings for each other, I will get what I want.
I’ll talk to you more about it.
I gotta stop writing because it’s really late.
I love you.
-Kyuhyun
This time, Sungmin couldn’t help but cry. He had this crazy gut feeling that he and Kyuhyun were going to break up soon. Winter break was two whole weeks and they wouldn’t be able to see each other at all. Sungmin knew that there was going to be a lot of temptation and he wasn’t sure if he could just completely ignore it. On the last day before winter break, Sungmin skipped school with Kyuhyun and just sat together at home; not wanting for it to end because they both knew that once it did, it would be two whole weeks before they could see each other.
“Sungmin, will you always love me?” Sungmin went to answer his question, but Kyuhyun was falling asleep quickly. Sungmin just leaned over and pressed his cheek to his lover’s beating heart and smiled. “You know Sungmin; that beats only for you.” And with what Kyuhyun was fast asleep.
During winter break, Sungmin met someone who he became quickly fascinated with. His name was Yesung and he was beautiful. Sungmin tried to stay away from the boy’s charm, but he failed. Yesung and Sungmin began to get closer, which ended up in Sungmin cheating on Kyuhyun with Yesung. Sungmin at the time didn’t think anything of it, but that was only because he didn’t really talk to Kyuhyun during that winter break.
January 5th, the first day back to school, Sungmin was so excited to see his Kyuhyun again, but he was also scared to see how it would feel after cheating on him. Kyuhyun greeted him with the biggest smile and the warmest embrace. Sungmin fell right into his lover’s way. Everything felt so right, and Sungmin completely forgot about his cheating ways. After school, Sungmin went over to a friend’s house and received calls from Kyuhyun asking about the break and that Kyuhyun had believe that Sungmin cheated on him. Sungmin couldn’t believe that he figured it out. Sungmin felt so ashamed that he began to cry and asked to be taken home at that very second. When Sungmin arrived home, Kyuhyun was waiting for him in his front lawn.
“We need to talk.” Those were the only words Kyuhyun said and Sungmin automatically knew that he was in trouble. Sungmin brought Kyuhyun inside and to his room where they could talk in private. Sungmin explained everything that happened and that he was extremely sorry for everything that he had done. Kyuhyun asked if this would be the end of the relationship.
“I’m so sorry, Kyuhyun, but I don’t think I can ever forgive myself for doing this. I think I have to do this for you. I’m sorry.” Tears began to well up in both men’s eyes.
Kyuhyun didn’t have anything to say except, “Take me home, please.” Sungmin lead Kyuhyun to the car.
Two months went by and Kyuhyun didn’t really talk to Sungmin. Sungmin was dying on the inside. He couldn’t believe that he messed up the best relationship that he ever had, that he was EVER going to have. During that time, Sungmin tried to tell himself that he could move on; he did try. He had two beautiful relationships with two beautiful boys; Donghae and Eunhyuk. Both of those relationships ended in heart break for Sungmin. He didn’t understand why he couldn’t keep a boy that felt perfect for him.
On the other hand, Kyuhyun had found someone perfect for him; Zhoumi. They quickly began infatuated with each other and then it became love. Kyuhyun was happy again, but Sungmin’s heart was dying each time he saw them together. Kyuhyun still talked to Sungmin, but only when Zhoumi wasn’t around. Sungmin’s life was crashing around him, and the only one to ever help was Kyuhyun. This time, Sungmin had to try and help himself.
During a band function, Kyuhyun pulled Sungmin aside and asked to talk to him. Sungmin quickly agreed and followed Kyuhyun where ever he was leading him.
“Sungmin, I know I don’t get much time to check up on you, but I just wanted to see how you were doing. First I just want to say that I still care about you. I’ve seen that you’re getting hurt; I wish I could help, but I know I can’t. Just keep me in your heart and try to think of me when you’re picking out new guys. Okay? Oh and you know I still love you right?”
With those words, Sungmin began to cry and Kyuhyun couldn’t help but wrap him up in his arms. “Sungmin, don’t cry. I’m always here for you. I will always love you.” Sungmin smiled into the boy’s chest, but couldn’t bring himself to say those three little words to that man again.
PG ; Kyuhyun/Sungmin
Summary: When things seem perfect, one decision can change everything.
This is dedicated to my ex boyfriend Bashaum. I went through some old files saved on my computer and came across a track list for two CD’s that I made for him. The notes are actual notes that Bashaum wrote to me. I’ve kept every single one. Every mistake in the note is exactly how he wrote it. I just felt like this had to be written. And plus, right now, I don’t have anything better to do.
Bashaum, I’m so sorry for putting you through everything I did. You don’t deserve any of this. I didn’t ever deserve you. Just know that even to this day, I still love you the exact same way I did when we were madly in love with each other. I’m sorry, and I will always love you.
“I’ve had a crush on you for over a year. I can’t believe that I even have the chance to be talking to you like this right now.” Kyuhyun was holding Sungmin in his arms; holding as tight as he can, like as if Sungmin would just disappear.
“Kyu, you don’t have to worry. I’m always going to be here for you.” Sungmin looked up into Kyuhyun’s eyes and planted a small kiss against his lips. Kyuhyun flashed a beautiful smile.
Months went on, and the two couldn’t be separated. They had a love that was beyond anything that was seen from people so young. At school, people couldn’t believe that the two were actually together and from what it seemed, they weren’t going to break up any time soon. Kyuhyun gave his entire life to Sungmin. Sungmin did everything in his power to make sure that the love between them never died.
One morning, Kyuhyun handed Sungmin a folded piece of paper and told him to open it away from him. Sungmin smiled brightly and hugged his lover tight. Sungmin loved it when Kyuhyun surprised him with sweet little things like this. Sungmin waited until he was in his first class to open the note. As he began to read it, he almost started crying in the middle of class.
You know, I have a gut feeling about us. We will be fine, like later. I think that that is a good feeling. Now that I think about it, I’ve had some gut feelings in the past about us and they were all right. For example, us getting back together after the Tueki thing. But enough of that I just wanted you to know what I think about something when I think about you. When we are apart. 1st of all, like every day when I go home, it feels like days before I see you again … and it’s only the next day. I wish I like lived with you … but I think and really hope we will get there … Being with you makes me feel like I could do things beyond that complexities of this universe. It’s like I’ve snuck into heaven and talked to God himself. Damn, what an honor. Me and you, I don’t want it to end … like for real. This is really how I feel. Check it out.
If for some insane reason I wasn’t allowed to play music, make music, or listen to music … I would be OK with it … It’s like, … IDK … Do I make you feel nearly as good as you make me feel? I really want to know. I’m just very curious. Man, I can’t wait to give this to you. I love you sooooo much. I’ll tell you this, my mom better get real used to me being with you cause it’s 2 months and counting. Technically a lot longer than 2 cause we have been in love. But oh well, all part of this journey.
Seriously Sungmin, without you, I would not be Cho Kyuhyun. I would definitely be someone else. And honestly, I don’t want to see that person. I’m actually scared to see who I’ll be without you. Like seeing you, smelling you, touching you, kissing you makes me feel like the sunset. I don’t want to write you a book here so I’m gonna stop now. I LOVE YOU!
“Na Sarang Hae Yo”
-Love your boyfriend,
Kyu
After class, Sungmin went running to find Kyuhyun. Kyuhyun was standing there just waiting with a grin on his face. Sungmin jumped up into his arms and screamed, ‘I LOVE YOU BABY!’ and proceed to kiss him. Kyuhyun just smiled after and whispered ‘All my love will only belong to you.’
Months went on a Kyuhyun and Sungmin were still strong. Many had tried to come in between them, but no one succeed. Kyuhyun and Sungmin did have their own problems though. Because of their parents, they weren’t ever aloud to see each other outside of school so this brought on a lot of stress. Sungmin was a very clingy person and wanted to be with his man as much as possible and not seeing Kyuhyun was driving him crazy. Winter break came along and right before the last day, Kyuhyun gave Sungmin another note.
Ok, I have been thinking about this a lot. I think about it everyday. The reason why I think about it is because of how you make me feel. I have realized and convinced that only you can make me feel. When you feel that, you are never ready to let something like that. I have seriously, seriously analyzed my feelings for you and how much I love you Sungmin and, … I guess I do want to eventually be married to you. That is how I’ve been feeling. Up until now, I have been SOOOO scared of telling you this. I guess I was scared of telling you and feeling alone about it, because that’s a bad feeling. But … there it is I said it. That’s what I meant when I said I’ve committed myself to you. You are what and who I want and I am perfectly fine with it. I know what I want. I will do anything for you. I will go through some of the most severe levels of stress if its for you. I don’t care how bad I have to hurt emotionally; if its for you, I don’t care. One way or another, if we are both very serious about our feelings for each other, I will get what I want.
I’ll talk to you more about it.
I gotta stop writing because it’s really late.
I love you.
-Kyuhyun
This time, Sungmin couldn’t help but cry. He had this crazy gut feeling that he and Kyuhyun were going to break up soon. Winter break was two whole weeks and they wouldn’t be able to see each other at all. Sungmin knew that there was going to be a lot of temptation and he wasn’t sure if he could just completely ignore it. On the last day before winter break, Sungmin skipped school with Kyuhyun and just sat together at home; not wanting for it to end because they both knew that once it did, it would be two whole weeks before they could see each other.
“Sungmin, will you always love me?” Sungmin went to answer his question, but Kyuhyun was falling asleep quickly. Sungmin just leaned over and pressed his cheek to his lover’s beating heart and smiled. “You know Sungmin; that beats only for you.” And with what Kyuhyun was fast asleep.
During winter break, Sungmin met someone who he became quickly fascinated with. His name was Yesung and he was beautiful. Sungmin tried to stay away from the boy’s charm, but he failed. Yesung and Sungmin began to get closer, which ended up in Sungmin cheating on Kyuhyun with Yesung. Sungmin at the time didn’t think anything of it, but that was only because he didn’t really talk to Kyuhyun during that winter break.
January 5th, the first day back to school, Sungmin was so excited to see his Kyuhyun again, but he was also scared to see how it would feel after cheating on him. Kyuhyun greeted him with the biggest smile and the warmest embrace. Sungmin fell right into his lover’s way. Everything felt so right, and Sungmin completely forgot about his cheating ways. After school, Sungmin went over to a friend’s house and received calls from Kyuhyun asking about the break and that Kyuhyun had believe that Sungmin cheated on him. Sungmin couldn’t believe that he figured it out. Sungmin felt so ashamed that he began to cry and asked to be taken home at that very second. When Sungmin arrived home, Kyuhyun was waiting for him in his front lawn.
“We need to talk.” Those were the only words Kyuhyun said and Sungmin automatically knew that he was in trouble. Sungmin brought Kyuhyun inside and to his room where they could talk in private. Sungmin explained everything that happened and that he was extremely sorry for everything that he had done. Kyuhyun asked if this would be the end of the relationship.
“I’m so sorry, Kyuhyun, but I don’t think I can ever forgive myself for doing this. I think I have to do this for you. I’m sorry.” Tears began to well up in both men’s eyes.
Kyuhyun didn’t have anything to say except, “Take me home, please.” Sungmin lead Kyuhyun to the car.
Two months went by and Kyuhyun didn’t really talk to Sungmin. Sungmin was dying on the inside. He couldn’t believe that he messed up the best relationship that he ever had, that he was EVER going to have. During that time, Sungmin tried to tell himself that he could move on; he did try. He had two beautiful relationships with two beautiful boys; Donghae and Eunhyuk. Both of those relationships ended in heart break for Sungmin. He didn’t understand why he couldn’t keep a boy that felt perfect for him.
On the other hand, Kyuhyun had found someone perfect for him; Zhoumi. They quickly began infatuated with each other and then it became love. Kyuhyun was happy again, but Sungmin’s heart was dying each time he saw them together. Kyuhyun still talked to Sungmin, but only when Zhoumi wasn’t around. Sungmin’s life was crashing around him, and the only one to ever help was Kyuhyun. This time, Sungmin had to try and help himself.
During a band function, Kyuhyun pulled Sungmin aside and asked to talk to him. Sungmin quickly agreed and followed Kyuhyun where ever he was leading him.
“Sungmin, I know I don’t get much time to check up on you, but I just wanted to see how you were doing. First I just want to say that I still care about you. I’ve seen that you’re getting hurt; I wish I could help, but I know I can’t. Just keep me in your heart and try to think of me when you’re picking out new guys. Okay? Oh and you know I still love you right?”
With those words, Sungmin began to cry and Kyuhyun couldn’t help but wrap him up in his arms. “Sungmin, don’t cry. I’m always here for you. I will always love you.” Sungmin smiled into the boy’s chest, but couldn’t bring himself to say those three little words to that man again.