i dont know
thats what i meen...i dont know what im doing, who i am, who i am in the fact i dont know what im doing. do i have the right to be the way i am? do i have the right to be my old self? do i even need my old self..do i even want my old self? does anyone want my old self...at all? do you think theres somthing wrong, i meen, about the way i do things, in the way i make friends, the friends ive made. my betrayels, my cruelty? is it all because i cant stand myself? is it all for somthing thats not there, but is..
today sucked, i went to school, and i really wanted to to go to ashley rays, i needed to be with a friend, i wanted to hang out with kylee this week, but i dont know if she even wants me over, i guess im not cool enough. anyway then i came home and thought about somthing and i started to really realize things and my emotions, but ive told some one i liked them and i cant go back to this girl, i dont know.. then i hung out with jj, then we met up with meg and shante and hung with them, and nick too "williams", they left at like 7:45 and i basically made my closest friend feel like complete shit, my cousin, im sorry cuz, i dont know how to explian it, im just not myself, i cant be myself..
today sucked, i went to school, and i really wanted to to go to ashley rays, i needed to be with a friend, i wanted to hang out with kylee this week, but i dont know if she even wants me over, i guess im not cool enough. anyway then i came home and thought about somthing and i started to really realize things and my emotions, but ive told some one i liked them and i cant go back to this girl, i dont know.. then i hung out with jj, then we met up with meg and shante and hung with them, and nick too "williams", they left at like 7:45 and i basically made my closest friend feel like complete shit, my cousin, im sorry cuz, i dont know how to explian it, im just not myself, i cant be myself..