Stubborn Denial
It has all come down to this! The eerie feelings, the pain all over my heart! Its all over. There’s no more to said or done that I can handle or even interpret. The definition of finale is:
Fi’na’le, n. the conclusion or last part; end….
This is the end of the original me, as I type these words onto this blog. For what its worth, if anything at all! I have learned a great many things from this experience! I have learned of love, I have learned to fear, I have learned to embrace, and I have learned to hate. I even had Sushi (LOL) But of all of the things that have happened during the past year, was that once again I have been proven wrong! The interests in another person only last so long! I once again have coped with this and don’t feel the absolute need to even bother feeling happy again. Content maybe but happy is out of the question. All of my strengths died Saturday evening! All of my charisma, and even my smile has fled, and I cannot find it. I must once again invision myself a failure, and even though you wont say so I already know. Im glad you took what you could, and have moved on! I hope once again we see eachother. I hope everything I have ever said to you sticks with you whenever something good happens to you, whenever you get shut out and no is there to pick you up! Just remember now I am no longer your fucking problem!!
I’ve been crying since mid Sunday, and it took a pill to finally knock me out. Today I woke up with this feeling inside of me that is just crying out. I don’t know what to do and I don’t know who to talk to! I do not wish to hurt others, this is my problem, my miscalculation, and also my downfall. I love you all and I would really like to see you all again.
Fi’na’le, n. the conclusion or last part; end….
This is the end of the original me, as I type these words onto this blog. For what its worth, if anything at all! I have learned a great many things from this experience! I have learned of love, I have learned to fear, I have learned to embrace, and I have learned to hate. I even had Sushi (LOL) But of all of the things that have happened during the past year, was that once again I have been proven wrong! The interests in another person only last so long! I once again have coped with this and don’t feel the absolute need to even bother feeling happy again. Content maybe but happy is out of the question. All of my strengths died Saturday evening! All of my charisma, and even my smile has fled, and I cannot find it. I must once again invision myself a failure, and even though you wont say so I already know. Im glad you took what you could, and have moved on! I hope once again we see eachother. I hope everything I have ever said to you sticks with you whenever something good happens to you, whenever you get shut out and no is there to pick you up! Just remember now I am no longer your fucking problem!!
I’ve been crying since mid Sunday, and it took a pill to finally knock me out. Today I woke up with this feeling inside of me that is just crying out. I don’t know what to do and I don’t know who to talk to! I do not wish to hurt others, this is my problem, my miscalculation, and also my downfall. I love you all and I would really like to see you all again.